I Miss Him!

 

Over 2 years ago the love of my life was taken from me. We had only been together 4 months but I loved him more than I thought could ever be possible. He was killed my his ex-wife over custody of their 2 children. It's been so long since I've dated I just can't bring myself to. I have even pushed almost all my friends away. No one knows how much pain I am still in. for over 2 years I've cried every night. I can't even go back into the restaurant he managed. which was also kind of how we met.  Everything reminds me of him. I never got to say good bye, and there was no funeral. His family was not from here so his body was sent to them. I don't know what to do. I still love him, and I need closure. But how can I get that closure. I could really use some good advice.

msmitzy msmitzy
26-30, F
3 Responses Feb 12, 2010

Wow - not very many people get to experience love at that level. I am so sorry for your loss. Prayerfully, with time, the pain will lessen and the memories will be sweet again. Until then, be kind to yourself.

I guess it is easing off a little. I don't know what my problem is. I'm a little embarrassed to let most people know that I still feel this way.

wow...wish I was smart enough to give you some advice. 2 years seems like a time fr<x>ame where it SHOULD start easing off for you but, who knows. You have to continue and be healthy because it was all for nothing if you can't just love the time you had...I'm sure he'd want that for you.