I'm Sick Of Pretending

I don't know what is wrong with me, but I seem to be the only one that has to hide my true self.  I don't want people to take advantage of me, so I hide behind this smirk and my rough exterior.  Inside, I just want someone to ask me how I feel or how I'm doing.  It hurts so bad that everyone just overlooks the kid in the corner...  That kid is me.  I sit by myself, watching the happy laughing people.  Am I the only one with real problems?  Everyone walks by, some making snide remarks at how crappy I'm looking that day, some pointing and laughing at the way someone just dumped their garbage over me, and some just walking by without looking.  No one tells me it will get better.  No one tells me that I'm not alone.  I just sit in the corner and avoid everyone.  Is it just me, or is it that people are just too stupid to realize that there could be something wrong with the kid in the corner?  I pretend that I'm tough and I could take anyone, but the simple fact is, I hate fighting.  I hate having to hide behind this stupid smirk.  I am so sick of pretending.

iNinja iNinja
22-25, F
Feb 25, 2010