Still Smiling When Inside Your Dying

It hurts when at times you feel like your breaking when someone tries to humiliate you in front of everyone. You just try to smile pretend that the joke was just ok and you don't feel offended at all. Like swallowing a poison while putting up with it's miserable taste..the taste will somewhat go away but the effect is still there inside you...you just tend to ignore the bitter taste and just move on. I've been here a couple of times, they notice how at times I felt distant, and gloomy, when in fact that's what I really felt in the first place. At times I feel depressed coz they expect big things from me and I failed them, or be criticized on everything that I do even though I never said anything bad about them. I'm not okay and I want to let them know that..I do know my mistakes and faults, but why keep on dragging the issue over and over...I'm getting tired of it.

Harleyquinne Harleyquinne
22-25, F
2 Responses Mar 10, 2010

Thanks for your advice, I really appreciate it :)

if you could really understand what was going on between you and the bullies you could stop them and it is so easy , but it takes some practice , Bullies attack psychologically, but what if they counldnt effect you . Come see me if i can help :)