I Think I May Be Mentally Ill...please Help

I've never told this to anyone.  Not even to the closest people in my life nor do I think I ever will.  This is probably the closest I think I could openly admit this to anyone.  I do pretend I'm someone else. All the time.  I've been doing it since I was a very small child.  I think it started out as just playing by myself alone with my toys and having an imagination but now its full blown and I sincerely believe I may have a personality disorder.  I pretend I am other people. Mostly, people that are celebrities or are public personas.  I take on their personalities and even accents if they have one.  I try not to but some times I'll slip up and let an accent out.  I'll go to work every day and pretend I'm that person, male or female.  When I come home, its even worse.  Because I'm alone I'll pretend to be two people at once, talking back and forth effortlessly in conversation.  It seems to help me not be lonely like I'm in a relationship but at the same time helps me to avoid relationships with the opposite sex because I'm afraid of losing it.  I also can't watch a movie anymore without acting out film out loud as someone else, playing all parts.  I'll do the same with sports matches.  I've tried to hint to my mother that I may be schizophrenic or worse but have never told her any of this because I'm afraid to disappoint her.  I'm scared and I want to stop.  I'm thinking about contacting a local metal illness clinic and having myself tested.  What should I do? 



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Like, yes this is so me. I'm 37 years old Mom with 2 daughters and LDR husband. Ive been doing this since 6 years old until now. I enjoying much. And record all my activities and stories in many books un published. But there is one book published here in my country. And i will never stop doing it. Even the drama continues many times in my dream by Lucid. Such fun!

Greetings from Indonesia :)

I am so glad to find this article. Let me tell you my condition.I am only 16 and I have been suffering severely from this inner world.I am also very imaginative. i love to be the hero in every story.It goes like this. I have 7 people living in me. All of em have specialized in some skill or the other.For example: Shaun (on of the 7) has power and once I'm him. I act something like Goku from the DBZ series.I literally talk like them. My family and friends find it weird sometimes to be with me.I am serious in one moment and then funny next and then extra-strange (like L from Death Note) next.
I have started losing close connection with people whom I loved. They say I am always to myself.
I barely have any friends now. This is getting very serious.
I try to stop this madness. I can. But when i do it, my life feels empty. I have lost all my characteristics that make me myself.
I love to know that I am not alone though. I hope I will find a way through.

Oh my god I could kiss the lot of you
This happens to me all the time and for as long as I can remember. Any movie, book or TV Show, I would end up inserting myself into the particular franchise and become the 'character.' As a child of five, I did this with lion king, PPG, you name it! And then as i grew older, I started to connect my favourite 'fandoms' together. My most recent addition is in Doctor Who, and i'm in so deep I can't stop... what do i do??

I've done the same, when I was little I pretended I was apart of the story in Peter Pan, and now I've resorted a anime.

omg me too , i spent my entire life doing this to myself and i feel like its more like a mentally self-harm .
sometimes i hate myself for doing this.
i lost a lot because of this **** i mean i'd really bad grades at my high school and my university because i leave everything behind me and i just day dream.
this ruined my entire life , i spent my life talking to myself and another celebs , ex bestfriends , or whoever i want to talk to , i ruined my life..and i can't stop.

You are not crazy!!! Take a look at maladaptive daydreaming! I have very similar behavior patterns and that's what I have!! Its a new disorder just being studied now and not everyone knows about it yet but you are not alone!!! Stay strong! There are a bunch of nice resource blogs out there for it on tumblr and also many other online forums, you are not alone in this! I promise

Oh my god. I'm so glad to see that there are others out there. I find myself taking on the personality of othe TV and movie charecters as well as people from bands and other such singers. I will sometimes even take it as far as dressing how I think they would dress and doing activities i think they would do. Some times I worry that the people will notice that my personality has altered. I usually will be that person for a few days then go back to being myself until it happens again and the cycle continues. I notice that I have a few that come back often. So comforting to find others that somewhat understand.

I've done this so much. I tend to be someone from a tv show/movie/book/band or related to them. Right now i'm going through a phase where in my mind i am Josh Dun's (Drummer from Twenty One Pilots) girlfriend. It helps me deal with my anxiety and depression. It's like i can have conversations with them in my mind and they calm me down. I haven't ever told anyone but my sister and she told me that she does the same thing.

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Oh wow. I love all you guys. I am a serial make-believe pretender. Escapism for the purpose of self-comfort is a way of life for me. I usually play TV characters, and often have one or two who are a favourite for a while. My hero characters on TV are role models. Instead of following them, I *be* them to get through a difficult time in my life. eg got a difficult technical/mechanical task? Be MacGyver. Driving a long lonely highway? Be Alan Tracy flying Thunderbird 3. It is way more fun to be someone else. I am mid-40s now, and have never stopped playing make-believe. In my world there are no boundaries. MacGyver could fly Thunderbird 3 if I needed him to. I have a way of crossing over so many crossovers, and merging together many TV shows into one "world", regardless of era, genre, universe or the fact that one actor has played several roles. In my world it is perfectly valid for Xander Harris, Dean Winchester and Starbuck to all play on the same Quidditch team, with Jethro Gibbs as their coach. It's MY world and I do what I like. It's not creative writing (it's not for other people to read as fan-fic) it's personal therapy. Of course my world makes little sense to someone else. It doesn't need to. As their world is theirs, and yours my friend is yours. Don't give it up. It is more sane and more fun than the real world.

oh my gosh. guuys. i used to ignore it since i thought it was just my inner writer making conversations and scenarios. before it was all in my head but now im actually talking, it's weird. the thing is, it never felt wrong. it felt light, warm, comfortable almost natural. but now im scared because i think i made up someone i cant let go of. before it was random scenarios but now it's just her for almost a year now. When i was a kid we always move, i never had a best friend up until now. But i made up this person, she's great, she's everything. i know her past, her beliefs, everything. she's like a best friend i never had. But im scared i've became dependent on her. id rather be alone in my room, with her than be with my classmate in real life. she made me feel something ive been craving for from the people around me. I love her but not romantically, that'd be weird. Its just strange that my thoughts were stuck on her, hell i even cuddle with her. i imagine her in the halls with me or us singing in her car. I want to stop because i feel like drifting away from reality because my imagination is crazy and much better. one time i tried not thinking about her but songs & places drags me back to that. **** im shaking writing this because ive never told anyone. guys is this a serious condition? but its good that we are still aware that its not real right?

I do this too and i am 13, i just want to know is there anything wrong with me and what is going on?? Someone please answer.

I'm 19 and I do that too and I'm not sure why...I just wish I could stop. I think it runs in the family...do you know anyone who does that?

I have been doing this for the past 5 years. When I was at school or at college now with friends I'm distracted so I don't do it as much even though my mind sometimes refers back to this imaginary life in my head. I can't remember how it felt to be normal now.

It's just recently that I have came to the conclusion that I don't like the way I do this and just want to be myself again, it's just that I don't know how to tell anyone. I feel as though I do this as a distraction from my own life as if I am not happy with it and feel as though I live a boring life.

Now that I am realizing how unhealthy it is it's making me depressed because it's not something you can snap out of. Tonight was the first night I've ever sat and cried about it.

I thought, I was alone :( its a good thing knowing that there's a lot of us doing this. Imagining things is my way of escaping reality. I dont know if its normal. I even talk to myself like almost everyday eversince highschool and Im 21 now.

Thank God... i do this too... smtimes i dont want to but it s like an obsession or smthng.. and i dont want to stop but i know it s weird..when i am around other people it s fine but when im alone i cant concentrate on smthng else..
But now i feel much less crazy ...thank u fr sharing this

I actually almost cried reading this bc I thought I was the only one and that I was going crazy. I'm only 14 years old but I've been doing this for as long as I can remember. Mostly I pretend that my favorite celebrity is at my house hanging out with me. I don't actually act out the motions or anything I just have conversations with them in my head and make scenarios with them. And the thing where u pretend to be certain character from a movie after watching it, I do the same exact thing and I am actually so releived that I'm not the only one lol I thought I was going insane. But I guess it's not really harming me or anyone else so why not lol. We all have something wierd that we do its just life so idk

I do this too, it started when I was 10 and I still do it, I imagine myself in an anime or tv show, I don't imagine myself as some other person I'm me but make myself some type of creature eg. Demon, Angel etc, I imagine myself dating one of the male characters from the show or anime and I use my big stuffed toy as something to hug or kiss and pretend it's that character and I talk to other characters from the same show either it be just one character or a group like they're there, when they're not, if my parents or friends saw me doing that, they'd think I'm insane, I know it's all my imagination, but I'm kind of scared because my imagination is kind of getting rowdy and I don't know what to do, please help, what's wrong with me?

Um..you sure you aren't my twin?! You took the words out of my mouth :O

i do something similiar to this. as long as you're not hurting yourself or anyone else, it just sounds like you are lonely & think of these people as a form of escaping when you feel alone.

This agrees with my case. I often catch myself pretending like i am my own boyfriend. I have never had a boyfriend before so maybe i was trying to make myself feel how it is to have one by actually being this very kind, and caring and the kind of boyfriend who never lets me down. I do this sometimes just inside my head or when im hugging my stuffed toy, i pretend that the stuff toy is me and sometimes i catch myself acting scenarios like kissing it while i am my "made up boyfriend character." If this is just a coping mechanism, its alright because it really makes me feel relaxed and everyday it just becomes more and more natural for me to act the character out. And then there's the possibility that maybe this is a mental illness or some sort?

Wow it's amazing that I feel the same way as so many of these people. Since a kid I've imagined I'm someone else and I always pretend that there's someone there...even if I'm alone in a room. I make out conversations with them and sometimes it's a group. Its getting a bit out of control now. Because every time I'm alone it happens. I act out scenarios like fighting and kissing etc. And I make it seem so real. I pretend I'm some celebrity or that I'm in some show. After I've watched a tv episodes I would go and reenact it but tweaked to my own personal preference sort of way. Please help. I feel concerned that this has seriously come obsessive. Heck I even wrap my arm around my self, hold my own hand and cuddle up to pillows all like it's someone else. I think I need help. But I'm not sure. I've checked online schizophrenia symptoms and I tick a few boxes, I just don't know what to do or believe. Can anyone help me?

Wow, so many people act the same way I do, I usually do write as well to help me. But I usually have a bad habit of getting attached to a movie or anime/game and watching YouTube, when I listen to music I play all these scenarios in my head; like fighting scenes or just this huge plot line. I would create characters for shows/games and play it out in my head on how they would react to my character. It used to bother me so much cause I thought I was crazy, but I am glad to see I am not alone.

Hello, I am 14 years old and I almost cried of joy reading this. Since I was 11, I play scenarios in my bed. It is usually a second life, always the same character with my dream name with a perfect body and personality but a lot of things happen in this life. It is always at night and sometimes in the morning when nobody looks at me. I whisper instead of talking so I don't wake up the whole house. I use my pillow to kiss people. And when I hug someone I hug myself. When holding hands, I hold my own hand. I never thought there would be anybody doing this. I always thought I had a psycho problem. Just don't worry you are not alone :)

I do the same exact things you do ! I kiss my pillow and hug it and also hold hands with myself, I feel like if I keep doing this I'm going to go insane one day :(((

I do this exact thing. 😱

I do this too lol but it never felt wrong while doing it. it actually helps when im depressed

Mine started when I was seven. I would act out scenes and talk to different people in the room that weren't even real! Id even act like I was fighting them or some crap like that. My family has caught me a few times, but as I got older it progressed. I write a lot so what I write I act out. I call it "Playing". I think oddly of things and i developed strange addictions. I think that I'm sick in some ways and I can't tell anyone how I feel cause they wouldn't believe me...does anyone know if I'm sick or not?

For a long while I thought I was crazy because I pretend to be someone else and pretend to be in relationship with someone. It's the same group of people , people I've met and make relationed to this opposite life.

I think it's perfectly normal for people to do this, as long as it doesn't get too out of hand. I also do this but I'm only 12.

I think its a lack of identity

I've done this since I was a little kid. Occasionally I'll make up my own characters but usually it's a favorite character from media. These characters are a mix of ages and genders.

I know fully well that I am NOT these characters and that I am just pretending, so it's not a delusional thing. But I'll do things like... buy clothing the characters I pretend to "be" might wear (which ends up being useful if I want to dress as one for Halloween), or if the character has a favorite food they're mentioned enjoying often I'll try the food too.

I've found that roleplaying as these characters is a great outlet for this, rather than acting like them at work or something, lol...

I'm 14 and I do that all the time because It helps me practice for acting it's fine to do that!!

Finally I have found other people who do the same!! I'm 18 years old, and I have been doing this for as long as I can remember! I don't tend to do it during the day, it's when I go to bed. I act out scenes from my favourite TV shows and films, and i usually am acting as more than one character. Also, the scenes are usually tragic scenes, such as death and sad situations. When I was younger, I always used to act out the same scene with my toys, where I used to rescue them all and be the hero. I have always thought that I was the only one who did this, and it used to worry about it, now however I just embrace it, and it is something that makes me unique.

Oh my gosh! I'm 13 and I've always done this. Whenever I'm alone I make up a conversation between myself and another person. I know there's nobody there but I can't seem to snap out of it. What is happening? I want this to stop because it honestly scares me.

I know this is 5 years old but I feel like I should comment. I've done this ever since I can remember. I think it's just something that some people with big imaginations do. I, for one, have a pretty big imagination and so do a lot of other people who do this. I'm a female and most of the people I pretend to be are male. A lot of them are celebrities or people who are well liked. Others are people who are in bad situations. I do this pretty much everyday. It's not something I want to stop doing because I enjoy it. It's fun to feel like you're someone else, at least for a little while I guess. I probably sound crazy to some people though.

I'm 13 and I've been doing the same thing since I was little. I am an only child and I really think it just had something to do with being lonely because when I'm at school or sports or with friends I don't do it but when I'm at home just alone I do. I thought that I was the only one until I read this and some of the comments. I sometimes pretend I'm a celebrity or youtuber or someone and sometimes I'll like make up people and it seems really weird but I honestly think that I'm just kind of lonely

Same i always pretend to be a youtuber even more famous than pewdiepie everywhere i pretend im doing vlogs

I'm so excited to reach this 5 years later. I'm go through so of the same things but, I dont want it to go away. I really do think my thoughts will become true to me or someone around me.

I do the same thing I made up kinda like a whole different life when alone or sometimes around people it comes up I had the same fantasy about a person who did drugs kinda like a boyfriend in real life it kinda came true a lot that happens in my mind does ?

Oh my God finally someone. I am 13 and I do this too,when I'm alone and I feel lonely I make up a conversation between two people and pretend to be more characters sometimes,besides I LOVE acting so it help me to grow my skills,my parents think it's completely normal for a kid to have fun this way. I am an only child and that's just how I have fun when I'm not around friends and family and I just want to be alone with myself and make up a conversation. I think it's normal,don't worry. I am only a child but I'm sure it's okay.

You're not the only one.......i have the same problem........ Sometimes i completely forget what i am doing....its as if i have a parallel universe inside my head where i am happy and successful and loved by all.....my imagination helps me to be someone who i want to be

Lol finally I found this hahah.. Well I'm technically 14 and I sometimes lock my door to actually do conversations in my head. But it's just in my head and I got like a lot of fictional character that I created in my head with different personalities. And somewhat having conversations in my head with them or become them. And It starting to get more often and my sis scolded me for locking my door so much. And I'm also confused to what I am. Like, do I have this personality or that. And also, I've been making some philosophy but I can only do that when I'm pretending to be someone. And forgot what I said after returning back from my casual daydreaming... Am I confusing ?

ok so i do think i am crazy at times but my mom thinks i am supper crazy which is really sad. i am 12 and you may think it is normal for a kid to have a imagination but not like mine. i make story's when i am alone, but the only way i can do that is by acting out ALL characters, which is hard but fun. see i act like this dangeris person a lot at school, i am this angery annoyed person at home but when i am alone i am who knows what, i am all these characters. my mom said that once that when i "talk to my self" i sound like i am having a real conversation with someone. she asked me if i am see things (which by the way i don't but it may seem that way) and all these other weird questions i didn't like. i thought i was becoming insane.....crazy.....a psycho, but then i relized that if people won't like the "real" me then there is no point for me to be wasting my energy on people that can't take the time to understand me. so now i have to find quite places in my house to make or finish a story (which is getting impossible in my house). lets just say i have some issuse that i can and can't handle. so i can't say i have a personality disorder just that i am different.

sometimes i do it too. im also very imaginative. i pretend im other people and at night before i sleep i pretend the pillows are people and im having my own world. im 17 now. i dont know if im normal. im doing great on college, studying well though im not much of a people-person and im introvert. I have some friends though but still i think there is something wrong... i think im insane too.. I also find it hard to sleep at night

but what i do is i write them all and try to make a novel out of my crazy fantasies..

I am finally getting the answers I have needed for a while now. I found a therapist who believes in dissociative disorders. You are fortunate if you can tell reality from fantasy because I can not. It is confusing when fantasy feels more real. I have been diagnosed with Fantasy Prone Personality Disorder so hopefully my reality will improve in time.

My nephew has something like that. I think a teacher noticed that in my older brother years ago. I was telling how I act out characters and stuff so I must have inherited sort of a fantasy mind. Everyone manifests this in different ways. I don't think my nephew does acting characters but my brother loves role playing wrestling characters and puts some of it on YouTube but so do others. I think its like a club or something but the fact he likes to play someone else is kind of a sign of it.

I feel this way, If i connect with a character from a movie or a book i find myself acting the way they do, even goin as far as dying my hair or wanting to have my eyebrows the same shape.. I change my clothing completely and go with what that character would wear... Iv done this for a while and the first character was Bella Swan when i was 13/14 im now 19 and currently its piper halliwell... I do the hand motions the way she acts the lot...I dont know why i do it... I mean its went as far as thinking i could have magical powers (i.e) Piper. Now i know i dont. i know who i am but i dont get why i do it?!?

It sounds like you could be paranoid. Rest assured that no one wants to kill you. I know this must feel very real to you. The switching of personalities could be dissociative identity disorder being you have no control. It might help to get a diagnosis so you can know for sure what you are dealing with

I pretended I was someone else scince I was 12 when I started to get bullied. But I could change back and forth and knew who I really was and could change back to the real me. I went through traumatic experiences and then I kept pretending I was that person. I did it for years and years until I started to loose myself..... Until I was lost. And I just held onto this other person. And just pretended I was them. Then I had a full blown mental breakdown at age 17. And am just getting out of it. And my personality switches back and forth and I have no control over it. I try so hard to cover it up and cover up the constant look of shock on my face because I almost have no control over my mind and my body/ actions. I feel like I'm struggling to be myself and find who I am. But I just keep switching all the time, it's very difficult to consents ate and function but I force myself and do it. I think that by pretending to be this other person I have changed the world. And everyone is in confusion. People are so confused around me. But I can't help my actions. I struggle with depression everyday. People know I'm mentally ill but I don't think they know how bad it is, I wonder if I have scitsophrenia. I don't know what to do. I think I have changed the world and made it confused and now everyone is going to kill me and get revenge on me.

That sounds fairly weird to me but then again the idea of normal is weird to me. People differ dramatically, everyone has their quirk.

it might just be that you come across as just doing an impression that you really get into when other people see you speak, plus there is no 'rule' against experiencing somethig like that...however if you tell people that you actually think you are that person or that celebrity or whatever they might be a little confused. I think you know that you are not anyone other than yourself. You saying that you sometimes feel like you are a different person just shows how vairied your personality is. It sounds like a really nice thing to be able to do; would be laughing alot thats for sure. It sounds like a positive skill to have!

If you start to feel as though you are forgetting who you are just remember that it is you noticing that; just as you notice that you feel like someone else sometimes, sometimes scarily so.

Now that you know you are not alone and you have told others you do this. Are you staying more in reality now?

So it could be as mild as an over active imagination or a serious mental or personality disorder

You seem quite logical so it could be just escapism.

That is good to know.

If we say the word pretend does that mean we are aware of what we are doing ? What about when these characters take over your body and you have no control over it.

Yes. You know you are not them but are compelled to do them. You are able to stop if you need to. If you have no control over it it could be a deeper problem like Schizophrenia.

Yes that is what I was thinking also or even an identity disorder that was a helpful answer

Thought I was the only one who did it. We are not alone :)

Being unhappy makes sense. How does one become happy with themselves? If we get happy will it stop? Umm I hope so.

Basically we play a role because we feel we are not happy with ourselves. So we become someone else. How do you become happy with yourself?. Think of the good things you have and not the bad things.

I don't know if this is normal or abnormal behavior. I wanted to take a survey of people I come in contact with. So far I have not met anyone who does this other than myself. I don't know what to think and they didn't either. I will keep searching for answers.

It is rare. It means we are not happy with ourselves so become someone else.

I do this as well. Always done this. If I watch Columbo I think I am him when I am shopping. I act out his mannerisms. Can last for weeks. I see, in my mind, myself looking at me but I am Columbo. And other characters.

I love doing this so much but i don't let it get in the way of my relationships with people or reality. I think you're just doing it too much and try to distract yourself with something else.

Just saw this post now. I do the same thing, as do many others. It's not "normal behavior" persay, but it's not an indicator of a serious mental illness like schitzophrenia. There is however, a disorder not yet recognized clinically called Maladaptive Daydreaming Disorder. I believe this may be what you're describing here. I'm not a doctor, I only speak from personal experience and I am a psychology student.

I do the same with fictional characters from movies, television shows, books, or whatever else is out there that I grab on to. I don't necessarily try to act like those people, but I do pretend that I'm someone a little different than who I am. I constantly have conversations in my head with these characters while I'm at home pacing in my room for hours on end , when I'm at work, or anywhere else if I'm not accompanied by anyone. You're description sounds a lot like my own and I'm glad someone else is out there. I am no doctor so I won't offer any advice to you on that note simply because I don't know you personally. More importantly (I'll type this again) I'm no doctor. I can say that I usually only pretend to be around fictional characters when I'm alone and I love it. The life I have right now is no where near as bad as others', but it's still tough and getting increasingly harder. I use this alone time with my fictional world to escape. I don't hinder it in the least, because this is who I am and this is what I do. The emotions, the stress, the heated arguments or the hardest laughing-fests help me get through the day.

I feel like I have something similar...when I'm by myself, I'll occasionally get bored and start talking to myself. Well, not necessarily myself; I imagine I'm just having a conversation with my friends around me, or that I'm confronting someone who has wronged me. Sometimes these conversations escalate and I say things I would never say around the people I actually know. I've also imagined I'm part of a fictional story that I've come up with and can become so emotionally involved, I may burst into tears or become seething with anger. I've imagined how others would respond to situations like this. I've even imagined how others would respond to my own death...I'm definitely not suicidal, but sometimes when you really wonder about something...the explanations or stories you come up with can be surprising. Sometimes I also realize how crazy I sound, and tell whoever I imagine I'm talking to that I'm just a lunatic....yet there is nobody there to listen. I've been trying to find out if there is any sort of name for what this is, and I've looked up different disorders, but I feel like none of them really apply to me. I just wish that I could figure it out, because the way I see it, if it has a name, then obviously other people have brought it to attention, so I must not be the only one.

I do that. I met a woman on a date once and fell for her but she did not with me. But for months I kept imagining I was with her. I would repeat the same daydream over and over again.

Thanks everyone who posted something because it really helps to know I'm not alone.

I do the same thing. But do you sometimes pretend to actually be the actor in the movie with thier looks and facial expressions, re-acting their movie lines as them. Cause that's what I do... And in "my world" I some how feel as if what I am acting as this one actor, is actually happening or did happen.

Same as me. All my life I have done it. It split my relationship up. I watched Scarface. I was not violent but I kept calling (the woman I love) a Cockroach. I even walked and did the voice. Did it for three weeks. And relationship over. Phychiatrist keeps saying OCD

Im having a similar problem except i pretend that i am a celebrity ( one that iv made up in my mind) and pretend to be friends with other celebrities or youtubers or anyone famous that i really like. Im 14 years old and i dont know if this is normal. Im an only child so im always lonley and i have nobody to speak to. I dont have lots of friends. In a way, i like doing this because it comforts me and it makes me feel less lonley. Is this normal? I havent told anyone not even my best friend or my mom. What should i do? Oh and this started last year.

Iv got the same problem but the thing that iv got ocd and I heard that ocd might be causing me to make up stories in my mind (well I found that over the internet) Everytime I make up stories in my mind I want to move around the house , it makes me run. Im really scared cuz my grandmother had schizophrenia and im just really scared il get it to. I mean I dont hear or see thing that dont exist , but I alwso dont knoe would what im having now be the start of schizophrenia . Im just really scared. And sometimes I want to talk when im making up stories in my mind.
Do I have schizophrenia? Or ia it just the ocd symptoms causing me to make up stories and walk around?

I have been struggling with similar problems for as long as I can remember. I am a mother and am married now. My marriage has been affected by this. I imagine that i'm in a relationship with someone else. A guy that I've seen or met will catch my eye and they will be the perfect guy. I imagine and pretend that he is with me and others are around also, but he is my major focus. When I was younger it was me pretending with celebrities (mostly sports stars). I am happy in my alternate world and dread having to come back to reality. I try to be the best mom that I can be and spend lots of time with my kids, but it seems that I'd rather be in my alternate world rather than anything else. I feel like a freak and I hate myself for need this escape when I should be happy with my life. I have actually made out with a pillow and pretended like it was mr perfect holding me to go to sleep at night. I have never told anyone this, never said it out loud. I know its odd to talk out loud to someone who I know isn't really there and im afraid that if my husband ever catches me he will have me committed. In a way I'm glad to know that i'm not alone, but I hate that more people have to struggle with this, as I know how it can make you feel inside. If anyone knows of a way to cope with this or help deal with and rid the problem, PLEASE share because I don't want to live like this forever.

Wow. I do this without even noticing until after, which scares me half to death. I'm very depressed and hate My life most the time i am also bipolar. For years and years now I've acted out scenarios in the mirror like a whole story line and start crying or laughing and then realize what I was doing and then start talking to nobody about how I am so stupid and hate everything I do and blah blah my life story. I do this several times a week. It has me wondering if this is normal?

Wow I'm stunned at all the responses on here I genuinely thought I was the only one that did this! Been happening ever since I can remember, has any one out there been cured or is there something that can be done? People please???

I am still waiting for testing. I don't think it is going to happen. I asked my therapist if I have Maladaptive Daydreaming or Fantasy Prone Personality Disorder and she yelled at me telling me there is no such thing. I guess I am back to looking for a new therapist.

You need to be involved in acting. You dont have an illness, you have an undeveloped skill. Lucky you. But, nobody can do this for you and motivation can be a terrifying thing . You could fail. Of course , if you dont try, you already have failed.

Maladaptive daydreaming, it happens to me everytime, now I can't focus at school because I think about my invented worlds and characters.

I have hypochondria also. I have been going to a therapist who does not believe in personality disorders. Not all of them do. I found a new one and still waiting to get tested. So far Schizophrenia and Bipolar. I hope the test will tell me more. I am thinking Borderline Personality Disorder or Dissociative Identity Disorder.

I can't believe I'm not the only one who has this... I find myself emotionally distressed every time I read books or watch movies and somebody does, because I either see myself as that character or I ask somebody close to the dead character, and it's like losing an actual loved one or causing distress to those around me... I feel as if I shouldn't have close relationships with people anymore in fear of hurting people and I often find myself acting as the character or person and feeling horribly sad, sassy, angry, or other things. My mood changes all the time according to how the character feels and I feel like I'm in the setting of a movie/book. They are reality to me and I take them very seriously and I feel like I'm crazy. I dream about them and I've even gone as far as lying to people on the internet about who I am and pretending to be somebody I'm not because I cannot express it to anyone else. For a while I thought I had hypochondria because if I read about somebody having cancer or something I would assume that I too have cancer, but I think this is different than that. So glad to have somebody who knows what this is like...

Like i'm having the same problem.. I imagine myself as various charactors, even act and talk like them and, i have done it yet while reading all above responses and comments.. I was imagning me as a person who helps people suffering from maladaptive daydreaming...

I imagine i'm a character of a serie, book or anime I like ans imagine the other characters too so I interact with them taking the role I have assigned.

OmG!! I thought I was the only one to do that! I was searching about it on the web.. I'm 15 and a girl..it started with me from 1year as I am so addicted to a tv show and I watched it for 3 years..it has finished from from about a year and I can't stop living in my favourite character personality..I pretend to be her out loud when I'm alone..I even started to act characters from films I watch! I can't get out of it and I started to feel psycho..

I have always done this as long as I can remember. I will always be me but the people who are watching changes, they can be people from films I have normally just finished watching or people I know in real life. I will talk away to myself like they are listening, its quite embarrassing when I am caught which has happened various times over the years, im 38 now and still do it all the time. I know no-one is there but I think its a comfort thing?? Good to know im not alone!! xx

Have you guys ever pretended to be famous and friends with celebrities? You play yourself but with a different, very different, lifestyle.

It's weird, as I was searching online to see if there was someone like me I was imagining stuff. I need to control it and I don't know how to stop or what's wrong with me. I have also pretend to be a youtuber or some character from my favorite tv show (i.e. Effy from Skins). I've been doing this since forever and I know there are people older than me that still do it, since I'm just 18. Is there something wrong with me? None of my friends know this. I don't go out much, I get invited and I say yes but at last minute I cancel and say I can't go. I try to get myself to go out but I can't. Sometimes I get anxiety out of the blue and I pretend there's someone with me trying to help me to calm down. I think I've seriously lost it.

Should I seek help or is this 'normal'? Because I don't think it is, unless you count doing this since primary school 'normal'. What should I do???

I imagine i'm the friend, daughter, girlfriends or boyfriend of my favorite characters of books or series and I take it really serious while doing it. I told this to a friend and she told me she did it too but i'm sure she really doesn't or not in the way I do.

I take it really serious too. Almost as if it was all real. I think the reason I do it it's because I don't like my lifestyle. I mean, if I'm someone else I don't have to deal with anything that breaks me down.

I feel comfortable imagining those alternative world, the problem is that sometimes I make conversations out loud, my mom thinks i'm insane.

I feel ya', I am so glad I'm not the only one who does it. I read somewhere that people call it maladaptive day dreaming, which I dunno since I ain't a doctor.

Yesss! I pretend to be a model and i pretend to be friends with my favorite celebrities and stuff. Im not scared but i just dont want this to keep happening forever. Although it does comfort me a lot!!

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OK they got me going to a specialist now for psychological testing. Hopefully I will get some answers.

I talked with my therapist about this. She said I had bipolar. I mean does bipolar cause a person to think this way? I am getting a second opinion to make sure.

I do this all the time. I am seventeen and a guy. I have two or three deeply detailed stories about some different guy (like a cooler version of myself). One of the characters dies and resurrects again with a slightly different personality (long story). But when I am them, I am completely them, it is scary once I come back to the real world, and I am afraid to talk to anyone about it. On the bright side I am a really good stage actor in plays and performances and inprov. that I do. And I do have a social life, but I do think it is linked to loneliness, because some of the problems my characters face allude to my real life (girl rejection, being alone etc.) until about a month ago I didn't realize how deeply connected to the characters I truly am, and that scares the crap out of me!

i have the same problem except im a 15 year old girl. I think my problem is just loneliness. I dont go out a lot and dont have people to speak to. Im too scared to tell anyone.

That sounds somewhat similar to what I do. Although, I pretend I'm a Youtuber. I made my character up myself. All I do is sit in my room and 'make videos' aka. talk. About random stuff. It has never worried me but I do tend to feel bad about doing it. Some of the things I say can be really depressing. I don't think it's something you should worry about though.

question: do you or have you ever had possesive issues? Like not wanting people to have what you have or know what you know. Like a new band for example. And question #2 Do you get jealous and envious easily and/or stalk others on social media. And question#3 When you act out every character in the movie do you pick the main ones that have the best line actions and roles? If so we should totally talk about this more together because Iv been there honey

Omg im not alone! I've been doing this for as long as i can remember. I act out scenario s of my own imagination, with various people of my imagination but the main character is always the same. I have her down to her looks, hair. Colour, eye colour, moles, even down to her dead parents ethnicity. I act out the other characters even down to the voices even the male voices. The scenarios are usually to do with love, family and accomplishments. They can last for months and i can have 2 going on at a time. I have friends and tend to cope well in social situations although i have never told any of my friends, i find the thought highly embarrassing and I think they would think i was wierd or a freak. I even lost a marriage because i wanted to be with my fake husband instead of my real one. I told my mother for the first time last night and it was quite a release as she did nt freak out or gather a posse to burn me at the stake. It was especially hard telling my mother as I think she may have had a hand in this. She herself suffered abuse as a child and as a result was quite a cold and unaffectionate. Although she wont admit it or deny it i remember being locked in my room alot, my mother would sleep till the afternoon so i imagine it was not to mess the house. My mother is not a wicked woman she has had a hard life and ultimately she has a good heart. I think she has her own mental issues. Anyway this whole fantasy world i feel has taken over and has stop me from living my real life, its like an ugly addiction and has made me feel suicidal at times cause i look at others who find friendship and life so effortless, i get so jealous. I just want to be normal but t the same time i don't want to give my characters up. I like being Gia, being perfect and being loved and i hate who i am. So glad u guys have shared, so brave. Thankyou x

I see you wrote this a while back but couldn’t resist reaching out.
This is the exact same thing I’ve done since before I can remember. I’ve always over analysed it and thought there was something wrong with me. I’ve wanted to go and see a councillor but didn’t really want to admit to anyone at all. Not because of the embarrassment necessarily but because I think talking about it in that way would make it real. I’ll go through phases where sometimes I won’t do it but it’s always there. I can’t remember the last time I went to sleep without sinking back into a persona I have and a really detailed back story and situation I’ll have developed. I’m always in a perfect relationship with a perfect guy and there’ll usually be something really special about me (I’m a bit hung up on super heroes.) I’m actually 27 now and still do it from time to time although not as much. In my adult life I’ve come to a pretty sure conclusion that it’s a defence mechanism and nothing more. *Also, to all those lovely responses who thought it might have something to do with a social disorder* I have nothing wrong with me, I have a great group of friends and I function perfectly normally in social situations and day to day life. I’m a pretty average person really. So I think it’s just a pretty normal thing that’s just gotten a bit out of hand. I don’t think it’s weird to try and cope with loneliness anyway we can. It’s one of the worst feelings in the world. I’m the same, I’ll talk to myself at night to drown out the silence. I’ll pretend I’m in a relationship because it numbs the empty feeling in my heart. I do suffer from a very mild bit of anxiety and it helps with that too. If I’m stressed or nervous I just lose myself in a story where I’m saving the world so my problems just don’t feel so big anymore – because they’re not mine anymore, they’re someone else’s problems.  If it’s starting to affect your day to day life and keep you from making real connections then I think maybe you should talk to someone. It’s so hard to admit to people but I’m sure if they love you they’d understand. I’ve also been in real relationships and had a great time, been in love, all that jazz and not once do I feel the need to do it, which just makes me more convinced that it replaces that feeling of intimacy.
Sorry for the rant – I hope something in there might have made you feel less anxious about it. There are obviously a lot of people here who feel the same and it’s so wonderful they’ve all reached out. I know it’s made me feel a little better knowing I’m not the only one. Just remember that you are in control and you are a wonderful person. Don’t let yourself disappear and let all these random personas take over. I’m sure there would be lots of people who would miss the real you. : ) xx

I'm 23 years old and I do the same thing. I always think that there is something wrong with me or that I have some sort of problem mentally or otherwise. I'm not in a relationship and I have a good group of friends as well but I tend to get very lonely sometimes. When I feel down or lonely I get lost in pretending I'm someone else. I usually pick a character from one of my favorite TV shows and pretend that I have their life. I like to think that it is just something I use to cope with the fact that I am alone and that I don't have anyone. It only happens when I'm feeling alone because it makes me feel better. When I am with my friends or when I have been in past relationships I didn't do it at all. It mostly just comes back when I start to feel that loneliness. Reading your post made me think that maybe there isn't anything wrong with me after-all knowing that I'm not the only one going through this.

Oh my god, I thought I was the only one. Honestly I have been imagining and pretending as well ever since I was young. I usually pretend that I am an actor, or a person in a fictional world of my choosing. Often it's one of the fictional universes created by other people like MLP FiM, or A Song of Ice and Fire, by George R.R. Martin, or even a universe I make up. I have been keeping it as a secret for so long due to fears of being considered a weirdo and a freak. The fact that I have Asperger's Syndrome makes me more weary that it might or might not be a part of my syndrome. But I feel it's something else entirely. Nonetheless, no one knows. Not even my family as I have fears of being put it in a mental hospital or given a label of crazy by a psychiatrist. It's been unnerving sometimes, usually I don't think about it and just act out my parts. I even have fantasies of having friends and a girlfriend in real life. However these imaginations have been decreasing due to an increased social life but I still have them and have on one I want to talk to till now at least. Thank you guys for showing me i am not alone here.

I tend to mimic fictional characters. I have this weird thing where I want to have relationships with certain people who share the same traits as the people in relationships/friendships as that character. But I feel if anyone had the slightest idea of the person I was trying to act as they'd know and would reject me for it. I wish I could talk to someone irl that isnt a psychiatrist about it and relate.

We are here trying to figure this out together. I have noticed that a few of us feel like we can't tell our mother. Could there be a link there? Afraid to disappoint her. Do we have some fear? Do any any of us have a dominant mother?

Yea I'm definitely afraid of telling any of my family because of what their reaction would be.

Is your character dying? Or is a part of you depressed and your having thoughts of death. It sounds deep.

my character usually dies and then i clear my mind and make up a whole other story.. right now the one in my mind is getting pretty deep story wise, and im just kinda wierded out that i do this

write a book, the best authors were like this

I am questioning myself constantly about my sanity because each time i have time by myself or just alone time i end up making scenarios where i am a different person, i just tell "stories" to myself and i am all the characters.. i have never really been open to this, not even to my own mother. i will use sound effects and accents and i think it is really weird for a 15 year old girl to do this. i have recently been pretending to be in-love with the angel of death.. and im kinda worried. im not a bad person im just kinda confused most of the time.. i don't know what to do really but i will mostly do this in the shower where i have privacy so no one can really hear me talking to myself. i will do it when washing dishes or in my room, it kinda scares me, because i know none of my friends do this. im not very social either so i might just be making up relationships in my mind. i will have fights in my stories with myself or even "die". im just acting in my brain but if someone actually walked in on me they would probably be worried.. i don't really know what to do about this so if any of you have any way to help me with this i would really appreciate the advice.

I have been trying to stay in reality. I am finding I feel very depressed and empty inside. I also find life very boring. Once I start living in fantasy again I feel happy and have energy. I am having some guilt though for going back to fantasy. Has anyone else had these feelings when trying to quit?

I have ASPD, and have been labled as a Psycopath and Narcissist. I have never had many friends who stick around long, but have often lived in an altered reality, when I was diagnosed a few months ago I had thought this was an effect of Psycopathy, then twindled the thought maybe mild Schizophrenia or Dimentia. I can't explain why I do it, I just do, i have many friends when i'm alone, and in an odd way it's helped me gain social experience, to the point were I can pretend to listen to my students when they want to talk to me about vintage planes aircraft and what they did over the weekend. It is a relief to see people who have not got these disorders coming out and saying something, now i and i am sure you all feel a little better knowing there are others who share this odd secret. I especially found the fact that the poster often posed as female personas as well. Although I have never played another person in my altered reality, I do often have fantasies of the same sex. I would offer advice but I myself have been looking for advice on how to deal with this problem as well and would like suggestions. All I know I started "pretending to be this other me at about 7 years old, it gets wierd but i will leave that out, for all you who don't want to hear because I am feeling nice to today, bt it would often involve hanging around older people, flying big planes and playing music. Now in my adult life it is the opposite, with the exception of flying (I am a Airline Flight Instructer for a major airline with over 2,000 hours on my log book), i can't say my passion for music has lead to anything other than a couple mangled cords though. Anyways I digress, but one thing is everytime played in this other world i had feelings, and connection I just never had with anyone I have been so gracefully aqquainted with over the years, and it was great because they always liked me for who I am and not Judge me for what I am. I guess after going in and out of this world and into that one, I somehow became stuck in this world when I am alone, sometimes when i am at work in the simulators or on IR flights while my first officer "Stares at the Overhead". I know this was long but whatever, what explanation isn't, or are they I forget to pay attention to people's submissions to these sites, but again I digress :)

I just want to say to all of the responses below, you are brave and my personal heroes. At the time I wrote this post 3 years ago, I didn't think anyone else did this and really thought I was mentally I'll. I know right from wrong and know that what I do is odd which is why I hide it. I don't think I'm sick and I don't think either you are either although talking to someone could be very helpful. I still want to do that and eventually will. But I just wanted to thank you all for being brave to let me know you understand what I've gone through and that it's ok. : )

I'm not getting along with my mum that much so I've been watching a couple on youtube they do pranks I think they are fun etc but the thing is when ever I get into and argument I always think I'm joint in with these to couple (I'm in there life) I think of being in there life because to me they seem to have the perfect life and I don't so to make my self keep going and waking up I think of being with them I don't know what to do sometimes when I remember that me being in there life is just my imagination I start crying I'm only 13

Oh my god, I've been doing this ever since I was a toddler. When I was little, I'd watch a tv show with my mom or something, and in my head I'd pretend I was that character. Back then, I didn't do it constantly, just every once in a while. Now I'm thirteen and I do this every single day. I have since I was about nine. It's routine for me. But lately I've been feeling guilty about it. Also, it makes me feel frustrated and depressed because I want to live in the world of the tv show/book/movie/whatever, but I can't. It makes me feel some better knowing that I'm not the only one that does this.

omg this is soo amazing to find out that im not alone!!! i actually thought that i was the only one like this. what i do is i pretend like im a celebrity and i act like im a new character in a movie or a tv series for example vampire diaries or something. and also i have all the other actual actors and actresses in the specific movie or whatever and i act as them as well. talking to my self back and forth. so weird. but then again i don't do this when im in college or anything. i normally do this when im at home alone. its like i pretend as im a really successful actress, singer, and also i pretend like some of ma real friends from real life are stars as well. lol am i crazy?? is this really normal. i've been doing this thing like forever and im 19. please help!!

I am curious to know if people had this condition before television. Watching TV really had an affect on me. The characters became real for me. The beauty , fame and wealth of Hollywood. Wanting to be someone other than myself.

Im just now seeing this and I'm going through the same thing,it started when I was in time out at a young age and it really pass the time, or if I didn't get the toy I wanted I would act like I did,I'm 19 now and I still do it,I thought I was the only one till I decided to look into it,I didn't think much of it till recently and started to wonder if something is wrong with me,I've nvr told any one about it. I wish I knew what the name of this was called though.

Wow I cried to this I am so happy I am not alone I am going to post my story right now on my page.

Maybe we are depressed and just don't know it