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I Think I May Be Mentally Ill...please Help

I've never told this to anyone.  Not even to the closest people in my life nor do I think I ever will.  This is probably the closest I think I could openly admit this to anyone.  I do pretend I'm someone else. All the time.  I've been doing it since I was a very small child.  I think it started out as just playing by myself alone with my toys and having an imagination but now its full blown and I sincerely believe I may have a personality disorder.  I pretend I am other people. Mostly, people that are celebrities or are public personas.  I take on their personalities and even accents if they have one.  I try not to but some times I'll slip up and let an accent out.  I'll go to work every day and pretend I'm that person, male or female.  When I come home, its even worse.  Because I'm alone I'll pretend to be two people at once, talking back and forth effortlessly in conversation.  It seems to help me not be lonely like I'm in a relationship but at the same time helps me to avoid relationships with the opposite sex because I'm afraid of losing it.  I also can't watch a movie anymore without acting out film out loud as someone else, playing all parts.  I'll do the same with sports matches.  I've tried to hint to my mother that I may be schizophrenic or worse but have never told her any of this because I'm afraid to disappoint her.  I'm scared and I want to stop.  I'm thinking about contacting a local metal illness clinic and having myself tested.  What should I do? 

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I'm so excited to reach this 5 years later. I'm go through so of the same things but, I dont want it to go away. I really do think my thoughts will become true to me or someone around me.

Oh my God finally someone. I am 13 and I do this too,when I'm alone and I feel lonely I make up a conversation between two people and pretend to be more characters sometimes,besides I LOVE acting so it help me to grow my skills,my parents think it's completely normal for a kid to have fun this way. I am an only child and that's just how I have fun when I'm not around friends and family and I just want to be alone with myself and make up a conversation. I think it's normal,don't worry. I am only a child but I'm sure it's okay.

You're not the only one.......i have the same problem........ Sometimes i completely forget what i am doing....its as if i have a parallel universe inside my head where i am happy and successful and loved by all.....my imagination helps me to be someone who i want to be

Lol finally I found this hahah.. Well I'm technically 14 and I sometimes lock my door to actually do conversations in my head. But it's just in my head and I got like a lot of fictional character that I created in my head with different personalities. And somewhat having conversations in my head with them or become them. And It starting to get more often and my sis scolded me for locking my door so much. And I'm also confused to what I am. Like, do I have this personality or that. And also, I've been making some philosophy but I can only do that when I'm pretending to be someone. And forgot what I said after returning back from my casual daydreaming... Am I confusing ?

ok so i do think i am crazy at times but my mom thinks i am supper crazy which is really sad. i am 12 and you may think it is normal for a kid to have a imagination but not like mine. i make story's when i am alone, but the only way i can do that is by acting out ALL characters, which is hard but fun. see i act like this dangeris person a lot at school, i am this angery annoyed person at home but when i am alone i am who knows what, i am all these characters. my mom said that once that when i "talk to my self" i sound like i am having a real conversation with someone. she asked me if i am see things (which by the way i don't but it may seem that way) and all these other weird questions i didn't like. i thought i was becoming insane.....crazy.....a psycho, but then i relized that if people won't like the "real" me then there is no point for me to be wasting my energy on people that can't take the time to understand me. so now i have to find quite places in my house to make or finish a story (which is getting impossible in my house). lets just say i have some issuse that i can and can't handle. so i can't say i have a personality disorder just that i am different.

sometimes i do it too. im also very imaginative. i pretend im other people and at night before i sleep i pretend the pillows are people and im having my own world. im 17 now. i dont know if im normal. im doing great on college, studying well though im not much of a people-person and im introvert. I have some friends though but still i think there is something wrong... i think im insane too.. I also find it hard to sleep at night

but what i do is i write them all and try to make a novel out of my crazy fantasies..

I am finally getting the answers I have needed for a while now. I found a therapist who believes in dissociative disorders. You are fortunate if you can tell reality from fantasy because I can not. It is confusing when fantasy feels more real. I have been diagnosed with Fantasy Prone Personality Disorder so hopefully my reality will improve in time.

My nephew has something like that. I think a teacher noticed that in my older brother years ago. I was telling how I act out characters and stuff so I must have inherited sort of a fantasy mind. Everyone manifests this in different ways. I don't think my nephew does acting characters but my brother loves role playing wrestling characters and puts some of it on YouTube but so do others. I think its like a club or something but the fact he likes to play someone else is kind of a sign of it.

Hi,

You have no idea how relieved I was to see that there are other people that do this. From as far back as I can remember, I've always pretended to be characters from tv shows or movies. I always thought it would be something I grew out of, but I haven't. I feel crazy. I'm 39 and I pretend all the time that I'm a character from an old tv show. The only person I've ever told is my husband. He's completely understanding and supportive, even going as far as to play in the fantasy with me to some extent. Sometimes the urge gets so great to act out scenes or experiences of the character gets so great, I get extremely restless. I've tried finding anything about this online and haven't found anything until I saw this. I've actually been searching for somewhere online where people do this as a community, I guess something like role-playing but with already established characters. I keep fantasy and reality separate from one another, but I still feel like something's wrong with me. Thanks for listening (reading).

I do the same thing. It will sometimes be like I am in a movie. I make up characters. I never play actual celebrities. These are people who don't exist or look similar to some actors or entertainers. A lot of my role plays are similar. A character is mean or cold but he or she comes around and is a better person in the end. Sometimes its like a love story.Or a story of kids needs a home so the stubborn person.... the last one you would expect takes them in and learns to nurture and love them as their own kids. Sometimes its sci&fine stuff and recently I "played" one similar to the movie The Giver. Then its back to love stories and I don't get perverted with it. Its like a family version love story.Or a kid needs a home or his father is cold but learns to be more loving.I know I must be a little crazy and I already go to a therapist for anxiety and depression. I do think this has something to do with my insecurities and worries because I can sort of step outside myself for awhile but I'm comp!etely aware of what I am doing and don't see actual people.I told my mother ages ago and she wasn't worried but I did not go in depth. I don't want to tell anyone else because they might put me on drugs which I already do have some meds for depression. The drugs make me feel bad so I cannot tolerate lot of that.I know I had an insecure childhood and my father was very cold most of the time so I think that is part of my problem.I am very introverted of course which is not all bad. Lately the acting I do has gotten to be more often and I have had stress and anxiety so I know I must be hiding it from my mind. Also sometimes I am other characters and I pretend its real life. But then I know these characters don't exist although sometimes I "miss" them or feel close to them and I act them out again. I just feel so weird that I have this problem and thinking God must think I'm nuts. If he is watching me. I do normal stuff in life like go to the store and buy groceries and I never act like anyone but who I am. I never turn on the imagination. I do talk to myself out loud some times when I'm frustrated but just about everybody does that. Oh well...

I feel this way, If i connect with a character from a movie or a book i find myself acting the way they do, even goin as far as dying my hair or wanting to have my eyebrows the same shape.. I change my clothing completely and go with what that character would wear... Iv done this for a while and the first character was Bella Swan when i was 13/14 im now 19 and currently its piper halliwell... I do the hand motions the way she acts the lot...I dont know why i do it... I mean its went as far as thinking i could have magical powers (i.e) Piper. Now i know i dont. i know who i am but i dont get why i do it?!?

It sounds like you could be paranoid. Rest assured that no one wants to kill you. I know this must feel very real to you. The switching of personalities could be dissociative identity disorder being you have no control. It might help to get a diagnosis so you can know for sure what you are dealing with

I pretended I was someone else scince I was 12 when I started to get bullied. But I could change back and forth and knew who I really was and could change back to the real me. I went through traumatic experiences and then I kept pretending I was that person. I did it for years and years until I started to loose myself..... Until I was lost. And I just held onto this other person. And just pretended I was them. Then I had a full blown mental breakdown at age 17. And am just getting out of it. And my personality switches back and forth and I have no control over it. I try so hard to cover it up and cover up the constant look of shock on my face because I almost have no control over my mind and my body/ actions. I feel like I'm struggling to be myself and find who I am. But I just keep switching all the time, it's very difficult to consents ate and function but I force myself and do it. I think that by pretending to be this other person I have changed the world. And everyone is in confusion. People are so confused around me. But I can't help my actions. I struggle with depression everyday. People know I'm mentally ill but I don't think they know how bad it is, I wonder if I have scitsophrenia. I don't know what to do. I think I have changed the world and made it confused and now everyone is going to kill me and get revenge on me.

That sounds fairly weird to me but then again the idea of normal is weird to me. People differ dramatically, everyone has their quirk.

it might just be that you come across as just doing an impression that you really get into when other people see you speak, plus there is no 'rule' against experiencing somethig like that...however if you tell people that you actually think you are that person or that celebrity or whatever they might be a little confused. I think you know that you are not anyone other than yourself. You saying that you sometimes feel like you are a different person just shows how vairied your personality is. It sounds like a really nice thing to be able to do; would be laughing alot thats for sure. It sounds like a positive skill to have!

If you start to feel as though you are forgetting who you are just remember that it is you noticing that; just as you notice that you feel like someone else sometimes, sometimes scarily so.

Now that you know you are not alone and you have told others you do this. Are you staying more in reality now?

So it could be as mild as an over active imagination or a serious mental or personality disorder

You seem quite logical so it could be just escapism.

That is good to know.

If we say the word pretend does that mean we are aware of what we are doing ? What about when these characters take over your body and you have no control over it.

Yes. You know you are not them but are compelled to do them. You are able to stop if you need to. If you have no control over it it could be a deeper problem like Schizophrenia.

Yes that is what I was thinking also or even an identity disorder that was a helpful answer

Thought I was the only one who did it. We are not alone :)

Being unhappy makes sense. How does one become happy with themselves? If we get happy will it stop? Umm I hope so.

Basically we play a role because we feel we are not happy with ourselves. So we become someone else. How do you become happy with yourself?. Think of the good things you have and not the bad things.

I don't know if this is normal or abnormal behavior. I wanted to take a survey of people I come in contact with. So far I have not met anyone who does this other than myself. I don't know what to think and they didn't either. I will keep searching for answers.

It is rare. It means we are not happy with ourselves so become someone else.

I do this as well. Always done this. If I watch Columbo I think I am him when I am shopping. I act out his mannerisms. Can last for weeks. I see, in my mind, myself looking at me but I am Columbo. And other characters.

I love doing this so much but i don't let it get in the way of my relationships with people or reality. I think you're just doing it too much and try to distract yourself with something else.

Just saw this post now. I do the same thing, as do many others. It's not "normal behavior" persay, but it's not an indicator of a serious mental illness like schitzophrenia. There is however, a disorder not yet recognized clinically called Maladaptive Daydreaming Disorder. I believe this may be what you're describing here. I'm not a doctor, I only speak from personal experience and I am a psychology student.

I do the same with fictional characters from movies, television shows, books, or whatever else is out there that I grab on to. I don't necessarily try to act like those people, but I do pretend that I'm someone a little different than who I am. I constantly have conversations in my head with these characters while I'm at home pacing in my room for hours on end , when I'm at work, or anywhere else if I'm not accompanied by anyone. You're description sounds a lot like my own and I'm glad someone else is out there. I am no doctor so I won't offer any advice to you on that note simply because I don't know you personally. More importantly (I'll type this again) I'm no doctor. I can say that I usually only pretend to be around fictional characters when I'm alone and I love it. The life I have right now is no where near as bad as others', but it's still tough and getting increasingly harder. I use this alone time with my fictional world to escape. I don't hinder it in the least, because this is who I am and this is what I do. The emotions, the stress, the heated arguments or the hardest laughing-fests help me get through the day.

I feel like I have something similar...when I'm by myself, I'll occasionally get bored and start talking to myself. Well, not necessarily myself; I imagine I'm just having a conversation with my friends around me, or that I'm confronting someone who has wronged me. Sometimes these conversations escalate and I say things I would never say around the people I actually know. I've also imagined I'm part of a fictional story that I've come up with and can become so emotionally involved, I may burst into tears or become seething with anger. I've imagined how others would respond to situations like this. I've even imagined how others would respond to my own death...I'm definitely not suicidal, but sometimes when you really wonder about something...the explanations or stories you come up with can be surprising. Sometimes I also realize how crazy I sound, and tell whoever I imagine I'm talking to that I'm just a lunatic....yet there is nobody there to listen. I've been trying to find out if there is any sort of name for what this is, and I've looked up different disorders, but I feel like none of them really apply to me. I just wish that I could figure it out, because the way I see it, if it has a name, then obviously other people have brought it to attention, so I must not be the only one.

I do that. I met a woman on a date once and fell for her but she did not with me. But for months I kept imagining I was with her. I would repeat the same daydream over and over again.

Thanks everyone who posted something because it really helps to know I'm not alone.

I do the same thing. But do you sometimes pretend to actually be the actor in the movie with thier looks and facial expressions, re-acting their movie lines as them. Cause that's what I do... And in "my world" I some how feel as if what I am acting as this one actor, is actually happening or did happen.

Same as me. All my life I have done it. It split my relationship up. I watched Scarface. I was not violent but I kept calling (the woman I love) a Cockroach. I even walked and did the voice. Did it for three weeks. And relationship over. Phychiatrist keeps saying OCD

Im having a similar problem except i pretend that i am a celebrity ( one that iv made up in my mind) and pretend to be friends with other celebrities or youtubers or anyone famous that i really like. Im 14 years old and i dont know if this is normal. Im an only child so im always lonley and i have nobody to speak to. I dont have lots of friends. In a way, i like doing this because it comforts me and it makes me feel less lonley. Is this normal? I havent told anyone not even my best friend or my mom. What should i do? Oh and this started last year.

Iv got the same problem but the thing that iv got ocd and I heard that ocd might be causing me to make up stories in my mind (well I found that over the internet) Everytime I make up stories in my mind I want to move around the house , it makes me run. Im really scared cuz my grandmother had schizophrenia and im just really scared il get it to. I mean I dont hear or see thing that dont exist , but I alwso dont knoe would what im having now be the start of schizophrenia . Im just really scared. And sometimes I want to talk when im making up stories in my mind.
Do I have schizophrenia? Or ia it just the ocd symptoms causing me to make up stories and walk around?

I have been struggling with similar problems for as long as I can remember. I am a mother and am married now. My marriage has been affected by this. I imagine that i'm in a relationship with someone else. A guy that I've seen or met will catch my eye and they will be the perfect guy. I imagine and pretend that he is with me and others are around also, but he is my major focus. When I was younger it was me pretending with celebrities (mostly sports stars). I am happy in my alternate world and dread having to come back to reality. I try to be the best mom that I can be and spend lots of time with my kids, but it seems that I'd rather be in my alternate world rather than anything else. I feel like a freak and I hate myself for need this escape when I should be happy with my life. I have actually made out with a pillow and pretended like it was mr perfect holding me to go to sleep at night. I have never told anyone this, never said it out loud. I know its odd to talk out loud to someone who I know isn't really there and im afraid that if my husband ever catches me he will have me committed. In a way I'm glad to know that i'm not alone, but I hate that more people have to struggle with this, as I know how it can make you feel inside. If anyone knows of a way to cope with this or help deal with and rid the problem, PLEASE share because I don't want to live like this forever.

Wow. I do this without even noticing until after, which scares me half to death. I'm very depressed and hate My life most the time i am also bipolar. For years and years now I've acted out scenarios in the mirror like a whole story line and start crying or laughing and then realize what I was doing and then start talking to nobody about how I am so stupid and hate everything I do and blah blah my life story. I do this several times a week. It has me wondering if this is normal?

Wow I'm stunned at all the responses on here I genuinely thought I was the only one that did this! Been happening ever since I can remember, has any one out there been cured or is there something that can be done? People please???
:)

I am still waiting for testing. I don't think it is going to happen. I asked my therapist if I have Maladaptive Daydreaming or Fantasy Prone Personality Disorder and she yelled at me telling me there is no such thing. I guess I am back to looking for a new therapist.

You need to be involved in acting. You dont have an illness, you have an undeveloped skill. Lucky you. But, nobody can do this for you and motivation can be a terrifying thing . You could fail. Of course , if you dont try, you already have failed.

Maladaptive daydreaming, it happens to me everytime, now I can't focus at school because I think about my invented worlds and characters.

I have hypochondria also. I have been going to a therapist who does not believe in personality disorders. Not all of them do. I found a new one and still waiting to get tested. So far Schizophrenia and Bipolar. I hope the test will tell me more. I am thinking Borderline Personality Disorder or Dissociative Identity Disorder.

I can't believe I'm not the only one who has this... I find myself emotionally distressed every time I read books or watch movies and somebody does, because I either see myself as that character or I ask somebody close to the dead character, and it's like losing an actual loved one or causing distress to those around me... I feel as if I shouldn't have close relationships with people anymore in fear of hurting people and I often find myself acting as the character or person and feeling horribly sad, sassy, angry, or other things. My mood changes all the time according to how the character feels and I feel like I'm in the setting of a movie/book. They are reality to me and I take them very seriously and I feel like I'm crazy. I dream about them and I've even gone as far as lying to people on the internet about who I am and pretending to be somebody I'm not because I cannot express it to anyone else. For a while I thought I had hypochondria because if I read about somebody having cancer or something I would assume that I too have cancer, but I think this is different than that. So glad to have somebody who knows what this is like...

Like i'm having the same problem.. I imagine myself as various charactors, even act and talk like them and, i have done it yet while reading all above responses and comments.. I was imagning me as a person who helps people suffering from maladaptive daydreaming...

I imagine i'm a character of a serie, book or anime I like ans imagine the other characters too so I interact with them taking the role I have assigned.

OmG!! I thought I was the only one to do that! I was searching about it on the web.. I'm 15 and a girl..it started with me from 1year as I am so addicted to a tv show and I watched it for 3 years..it has finished from from about a year and I can't stop living in my favourite character personality..I pretend to be her out loud when I'm alone..I even started to act characters from films I watch! I can't get out of it and I started to feel psycho..

I have always done this as long as I can remember. I will always be me but the people who are watching changes, they can be people from films I have normally just finished watching or people I know in real life. I will talk away to myself like they are listening, its quite embarrassing when I am caught which has happened various times over the years, im 38 now and still do it all the time. I know no-one is there but I think its a comfort thing?? Good to know im not alone!! xx

Have you guys ever pretended to be famous and friends with celebrities? You play yourself but with a different, very different, lifestyle.

It's weird, as I was searching online to see if there was someone like me I was imagining stuff. I need to control it and I don't know how to stop or what's wrong with me. I have also pretend to be a youtuber or some character from my favorite tv show (i.e. Effy from Skins). I've been doing this since forever and I know there are people older than me that still do it, since I'm just 18. Is there something wrong with me? None of my friends know this. I don't go out much, I get invited and I say yes but at last minute I cancel and say I can't go. I try to get myself to go out but I can't. Sometimes I get anxiety out of the blue and I pretend there's someone with me trying to help me to calm down. I think I've seriously lost it.

Should I seek help or is this 'normal'? Because I don't think it is, unless you count doing this since primary school 'normal'. What should I do???

I imagine i'm the friend, daughter, girlfriends or boyfriend of my favorite characters of books or series and I take it really serious while doing it. I told this to a friend and she told me she did it too but i'm sure she really doesn't or not in the way I do.

I take it really serious too. Almost as if it was all real. I think the reason I do it it's because I don't like my lifestyle. I mean, if I'm someone else I don't have to deal with anything that breaks me down.

I feel comfortable imagining those alternative world, the problem is that sometimes I make conversations out loud, my mom thinks i'm insane.

I feel ya', I am so glad I'm not the only one who does it. I read somewhere that people call it maladaptive day dreaming, which I dunno since I ain't a doctor.

Yesss! I pretend to be a model and i pretend to be friends with my favorite celebrities and stuff. Im not scared but i just dont want this to keep happening forever. Although it does comfort me a lot!!

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OK they got me going to a specialist now for psychological testing. Hopefully I will get some answers.

I talked with my therapist about this. She said I had bipolar. I mean does bipolar cause a person to think this way? I am getting a second opinion to make sure.

I do this all the time. I am seventeen and a guy. I have two or three deeply detailed stories about some different guy (like a cooler version of myself). One of the characters dies and resurrects again with a slightly different personality (long story). But when I am them, I am completely them, it is scary once I come back to the real world, and I am afraid to talk to anyone about it. On the bright side I am a really good stage actor in plays and performances and inprov. that I do. And I do have a social life, but I do think it is linked to loneliness, because some of the problems my characters face allude to my real life (girl rejection, being alone etc.) until about a month ago I didn't realize how deeply connected to the characters I truly am, and that scares the crap out of me!

i have the same problem except im a 15 year old girl. I think my problem is just loneliness. I dont go out a lot and dont have people to speak to. Im too scared to tell anyone.

That sounds somewhat similar to what I do. Although, I pretend I'm a Youtuber. I made my character up myself. All I do is sit in my room and 'make videos' aka. talk. About random stuff. It has never worried me but I do tend to feel bad about doing it. Some of the things I say can be really depressing. I don't think it's something you should worry about though.

question: do you or have you ever had possesive issues? Like not wanting people to have what you have or know what you know. Like a new band for example. And question #2 Do you get jealous and envious easily and/or stalk others on social media. And question#3 When you act out every character in the movie do you pick the main ones that have the best line actions and roles? If so we should totally talk about this more together because Iv been there honey

Omg im not alone! I've been doing this for as long as i can remember. I act out scenario s of my own imagination, with various people of my imagination but the main character is always the same. I have her down to her looks, hair. Colour, eye colour, moles, even down to her dead parents ethnicity. I act out the other characters even down to the voices even the male voices. The scenarios are usually to do with love, family and accomplishments. They can last for months and i can have 2 going on at a time. I have friends and tend to cope well in social situations although i have never told any of my friends, i find the thought highly embarrassing and I think they would think i was wierd or a freak. I even lost a marriage because i wanted to be with my fake husband instead of my real one. I told my mother for the first time last night and it was quite a release as she did nt freak out or gather a posse to burn me at the stake. It was especially hard telling my mother as I think she may have had a hand in this. She herself suffered abuse as a child and as a result was quite a cold and unaffectionate. Although she wont admit it or deny it i remember being locked in my room alot, my mother would sleep till the afternoon so i imagine it was not to mess the house. My mother is not a wicked woman she has had a hard life and ultimately she has a good heart. I think she has her own mental issues. Anyway this whole fantasy world i feel has taken over and has stop me from living my real life, its like an ugly addiction and has made me feel suicidal at times cause i look at others who find friendship and life so effortless, i get so jealous. I just want to be normal but t the same time i don't want to give my characters up. I like being Gia, being perfect and being loved and i hate who i am. So glad u guys have shared, so brave. Thankyou x

Hi,
 
I see you wrote this a while back but couldn’t resist reaching out.
 
This is the exact same thing I’ve done since before I can remember. I’ve always over analysed it and thought there was something wrong with me. I’ve wanted to go and see a councillor but didn’t really want to admit to anyone at all. Not because of the embarrassment necessarily but because I think talking about it in that way would make it real. I’ll go through phases where sometimes I won’t do it but it’s always there. I can’t remember the last time I went to sleep without sinking back into a persona I have and a really detailed back story and situation I’ll have developed. I’m always in a perfect relationship with a perfect guy and there’ll usually be something really special about me (I’m a bit hung up on super heroes.) I’m actually 27 now and still do it from time to time although not as much. In my adult life I’ve come to a pretty sure conclusion that it’s a defence mechanism and nothing more. *Also, to all those lovely responses who thought it might have something to do with a social disorder* I have nothing wrong with me, I have a great group of friends and I function perfectly normally in social situations and day to day life. I’m a pretty average person really. So I think it’s just a pretty normal thing that’s just gotten a bit out of hand. I don’t think it’s weird to try and cope with loneliness anyway we can. It’s one of the worst feelings in the world. I’m the same, I’ll talk to myself at night to drown out the silence. I’ll pretend I’m in a relationship because it numbs the empty feeling in my heart. I do suffer from a very mild bit of anxiety and it helps with that too. If I’m stressed or nervous I just lose myself in a story where I’m saving the world so my problems just don’t feel so big anymore – because they’re not mine anymore, they’re someone else’s problems.  If it’s starting to affect your day to day life and keep you from making real connections then I think maybe you should talk to someone. It’s so hard to admit to people but I’m sure if they love you they’d understand. I’ve also been in real relationships and had a great time, been in love, all that jazz and not once do I feel the need to do it, which just makes me more convinced that it replaces that feeling of intimacy.
 
Sorry for the rant – I hope something in there might have made you feel less anxious about it. There are obviously a lot of people here who feel the same and it’s so wonderful they’ve all reached out. I know it’s made me feel a little better knowing I’m not the only one. Just remember that you are in control and you are a wonderful person. Don’t let yourself disappear and let all these random personas take over. I’m sure there would be lots of people who would miss the real you. : ) xx

I'm 23 years old and I do the same thing. I always think that there is something wrong with me or that I have some sort of problem mentally or otherwise. I'm not in a relationship and I have a good group of friends as well but I tend to get very lonely sometimes. When I feel down or lonely I get lost in pretending I'm someone else. I usually pick a character from one of my favorite TV shows and pretend that I have their life. I like to think that it is just something I use to cope with the fact that I am alone and that I don't have anyone. It only happens when I'm feeling alone because it makes me feel better. When I am with my friends or when I have been in past relationships I didn't do it at all. It mostly just comes back when I start to feel that loneliness. Reading your post made me think that maybe there isn't anything wrong with me after-all knowing that I'm not the only one going through this.

Oh my god, I thought I was the only one. Honestly I have been imagining and pretending as well ever since I was young. I usually pretend that I am an actor, or a person in a fictional world of my choosing. Often it's one of the fictional universes created by other people like MLP FiM, or A Song of Ice and Fire, by George R.R. Martin, or even a universe I make up. I have been keeping it as a secret for so long due to fears of being considered a weirdo and a freak. The fact that I have Asperger's Syndrome makes me more weary that it might or might not be a part of my syndrome. But I feel it's something else entirely. Nonetheless, no one knows. Not even my family as I have fears of being put it in a mental hospital or given a label of crazy by a psychiatrist. It's been unnerving sometimes, usually I don't think about it and just act out my parts. I even have fantasies of having friends and a girlfriend in real life. However these imaginations have been decreasing due to an increased social life but I still have them and have on one I want to talk to till now at least. Thank you guys for showing me i am not alone here.

I tend to mimic fictional characters. I have this weird thing where I want to have relationships with certain people who share the same traits as the people in relationships/friendships as that character. But I feel if anyone had the slightest idea of the person I was trying to act as they'd know and would reject me for it. I wish I could talk to someone irl that isnt a psychiatrist about it and relate.

We are here trying to figure this out together. I have noticed that a few of us feel like we can't tell our mother. Could there be a link there? Afraid to disappoint her. Do we have some fear? Do any any of us have a dominant mother?

Is your character dying? Or is a part of you depressed and your having thoughts of death. It sounds deep.

my character usually dies and then i clear my mind and make up a whole other story.. right now the one in my mind is getting pretty deep story wise, and im just kinda wierded out that i do this

write a book, the best authors were like this

I am questioning myself constantly about my sanity because each time i have time by myself or just alone time i end up making scenarios where i am a different person, i just tell "stories" to myself and i am all the characters.. i have never really been open to this, not even to my own mother. i will use sound effects and accents and i think it is really weird for a 15 year old girl to do this. i have recently been pretending to be in-love with the angel of death.. and im kinda worried. im not a bad person im just kinda confused most of the time.. i don't know what to do really but i will mostly do this in the shower where i have privacy so no one can really hear me talking to myself. i will do it when washing dishes or in my room, it kinda scares me, because i know none of my friends do this. im not very social either so i might just be making up relationships in my mind. i will have fights in my stories with myself or even "die". im just acting in my brain but if someone actually walked in on me they would probably be worried.. i don't really know what to do about this so if any of you have any way to help me with this i would really appreciate the advice.

I have been trying to stay in reality. I am finding I feel very depressed and empty inside. I also find life very boring. Once I start living in fantasy again I feel happy and have energy. I am having some guilt though for going back to fantasy. Has anyone else had these feelings when trying to quit?

I have ASPD, and have been labled as a Psycopath and Narcissist. I have never had many friends who stick around long, but have often lived in an altered reality, when I was diagnosed a few months ago I had thought this was an effect of Psycopathy, then twindled the thought maybe mild Schizophrenia or Dimentia. I can't explain why I do it, I just do, i have many friends when i'm alone, and in an odd way it's helped me gain social experience, to the point were I can pretend to listen to my students when they want to talk to me about vintage planes aircraft and what they did over the weekend. It is a relief to see people who have not got these disorders coming out and saying something, now i and i am sure you all feel a little better knowing there are others who share this odd secret. I especially found the fact that the poster often posed as female personas as well. Although I have never played another person in my altered reality, I do often have fantasies of the same sex. I would offer advice but I myself have been looking for advice on how to deal with this problem as well and would like suggestions. All I know I started "pretending to be this other me at about 7 years old, it gets wierd but i will leave that out, for all you who don't want to hear because I am feeling nice to today, bt it would often involve hanging around older people, flying big planes and playing music. Now in my adult life it is the opposite, with the exception of flying (I am a Airline Flight Instructer for a major airline with over 2,000 hours on my log book), i can't say my passion for music has lead to anything other than a couple mangled cords though. Anyways I digress, but one thing is everytime played in this other world i had feelings, and connection I just never had with anyone I have been so gracefully aqquainted with over the years, and it was great because they always liked me for who I am and not Judge me for what I am. I guess after going in and out of this world and into that one, I somehow became stuck in this world when I am alone, sometimes when i am at work in the simulators or on IR flights while my first officer "Stares at the Overhead". I know this was long but whatever, what explanation isn't, or are they I forget to pay attention to people's submissions to these sites, but again I digress :)

I just want to say to all of the responses below, you are brave and my personal heroes. At the time I wrote this post 3 years ago, I didn't think anyone else did this and really thought I was mentally I'll. I know right from wrong and know that what I do is odd which is why I hide it. I don't think I'm sick and I don't think either you are either although talking to someone could be very helpful. I still want to do that and eventually will. But I just wanted to thank you all for being brave to let me know you understand what I've gone through and that it's ok. : )

I'm not getting along with my mum that much so I've been watching a couple on youtube they do pranks I think they are fun etc but the thing is when ever I get into and argument I always think I'm joint in with these to couple (I'm in there life) I think of being in there life because to me they seem to have the perfect life and I don't so to make my self keep going and waking up I think of being with them I don't know what to do sometimes when I remember that me being in there life is just my imagination I start crying I'm only 13

Oh my god, I've been doing this ever since I was a toddler. When I was little, I'd watch a tv show with my mom or something, and in my head I'd pretend I was that character. Back then, I didn't do it constantly, just every once in a while. Now I'm thirteen and I do this every single day. I have since I was about nine. It's routine for me. But lately I've been feeling guilty about it. Also, it makes me feel frustrated and depressed because I want to live in the world of the tv show/book/movie/whatever, but I can't. It makes me feel some better knowing that I'm not the only one that does this.

omg this is soo amazing to find out that im not alone!!! i actually thought that i was the only one like this. what i do is i pretend like im a celebrity and i act like im a new character in a movie or a tv series for example vampire diaries or something. and also i have all the other actual actors and actresses in the specific movie or whatever and i act as them as well. talking to my self back and forth. so weird. but then again i don't do this when im in college or anything. i normally do this when im at home alone. its like i pretend as im a really successful actress, singer, and also i pretend like some of ma real friends from real life are stars as well. lol am i crazy?? is this really normal. i've been doing this thing like forever and im 19. please help!!

I am curious to know if people had this condition before television. Watching TV really had an affect on me. The characters became real for me. The beauty , fame and wealth of Hollywood. Wanting to be someone other than myself.

Im just now seeing this and I'm going through the same thing,it started when I was in time out at a young age and it really pass the time, or if I didn't get the toy I wanted I would act like I did,I'm 19 now and I still do it,I thought I was the only one till I decided to look into it,I didn't think much of it till recently and started to wonder if something is wrong with me,I've nvr told any one about it. I wish I knew what the name of this was called though.

Wow I cried to this I am so happy I am not alone I am going to post my story right now on my page.

Maybe we are depressed and just don't know it

I think it is an alternate world from reality. A happier place to be. The world you create so you can feel good. That way you can be who you want to be and the characters around you.

Okay but some of these are similar but I pretend someone's around me.... Like a character I like ...:-$

I have the same problem. I have no idea what to do either. I'm quite scared actually.

I'm filled with joy.I'm so glad I'm not the only one!! Even though I have older siblings but I've always been alone and kept to myself. It's like a safe haven for me

Why do we do this could it be boredom, loneliness or escape ?

Oh my god. Okay I think I have this too, although the person I pretend to be is not a famous person, completely made up. It started when I was about 13. Me and my sister pretended to be these people, she was like five different people and I was one person. She was the guys and I was this one girl. Her name is cici. We would literally act like these people, pretend to be in relayionships(well our characters) and just get VERY emotionally into it. Where it felt SO real to me.. Like I couldn't focus on real life. I'm seventeen now and she is 15. We don't do it anymore, haven't for about 3 years, but I myself still feel like this character of mine lives in me. I feel like I'm her. It is crazy.. In real life, I'm completely normal. Have friends, people like me. But it's like my dirty little secret. Glad to know I'm not the only one... Haha!

I can assure you, you do not have a personality disorder or are schizophrenic. These types of people do not recognize their problem.

Is it ever going to stop

So glad I'm not the only person who does this

Well that is helpful. I will do that thanks

I do the exact same thing, but I have been diagnosed with Maladaptive Daydreaming disorder. Maybe that's something you can look into?

Could it be a new mental illness that no one has recognized yet?

Could we be hallucinating or having delusions of grandeur?

Wow, I have suffered from these symptoms since I was a child. I am a female, now at 46 years old. I have been diagnosed with bipolar depression, schizophrenia and feel that I suffer from border line personality disorder as well. Has anyone been diagnosed and is there a mental health care provider that specialized in this disorder.

OK, apparently we've all been hiding this big secret, thinking we were alone. I'm in my 50's, been acting out/talking to myself for years. I have a history of major depression, but I'm wondering if I may be schizoaffective? I work with folks with mental illness, but they seem to think there's somebody that they are really talking to. I can tell the difference.

wow i didn't think there was anyone out there like me! I'm 14 I've been pretending to be Cheryl Cole since I was about 6, I sing and dance in my room to songs that are not even hers, I pretend shes the best singer around, and I make her be in films as well. Im not down to earth at all, and I do want to stop I just cant because its way better than my life. I haven't told anyone around me about it in case they send me to a psycho block or something, I thought I was the only one with this problem.

OMG I'm literally in shock that people are like me. But I think I take the cake. I'm 21 years old and I have been doing this for years. It all started when I went through this britney spears obsession stage but then, I created a character named Linda. And that's "who I am". Linda is the worlds best actress/ singer. She won an oscar at 6 and is now 24. She was married to MJ, and Jared Leto and had four kids with him ! One was murdered and the other three died in a plane crash. I was so emotionally devasted as if it were real. She is now divorced and in a relationship with Sam. This "mental illness" is scary at times because it feels so real. Also did I mention she is a sextuplet and her father is Steven Tyler. I'm telling you it's crazy! And in real life I have a kid!! The thing is I don't speak out loud, I more take really low and have conversations with other characters. There is so much more to my fictional world! The thing is, this is the weirdest thing about me. I'm tottally normal in real life! I had no idea other people were like this! I want to cry. What is this disorder called? There has to be a name of it!!

It's called Maladaptive Daydreaming!

Yo...You just put me in shock. I've been doing this since I was eight years old. It first started happening when I had a obsession with Brad Pitt. I would act out his scenes in his movies and pretend that I was actually him, re-acting his scenes. And you would think since I am a girl, that I would be a lesbian but, I am definitely not! Anyways, later on when I was about 13, I created a person in "my own world". His name was Rolando and I imagined him to be hotter than Brad Pitt and he has won 8 oscars and he has a successful singer career as well. Idk why I created him since I actually like Brad Pitt, but I felt as if Brad would be jealous of Ronaldo. And everyone in Hollywood would be jealous and aware of the sexy Ronaldo Salvatore. Ronaldo had the sexiest abs, tanned skin, black hair, and blue eyes. He also played lots of sports, mma tricking (backflips and cool stuff) and knew how to breakdance.No one in Hollywood could beat Ronaldo at anything. Then I started to act as Ronaldo and I would star him in the best movies like twilight, fight club, casino... I was very confused with what I was doing...

I also created Rolando Salvatore to be married to Angelina Jolie and the actual Brad Pitt was still with jennifer whatever her name was and in "my world" Brad would be seriously jealous of Rolando and Angelina's romance. They also had twin boys. Then later on in my life, I started to be obsessed with James Dean. So I then stopped with Rolando and started to act like I was James Dean now. Every characteristic that I made up for Rolando now made up James Dean. And I would make up in "my world" that James never died in a car crash in the 50's and that he lived on until he was 36 in a car crash. In "my world" James Dean was married to Marilyn Monroe and they starred in the movies The Notebook and Titanic. And I would imagine actors nowadays like Brad Pitt, Leonardo DiCaprio, Johnny Depp,etc. would know that James Dean was hotter than them and (every characteristic that I said was Rolando's previously). So that is my story and in "my world" I still act as James Dean today. Please if someone knows if this is a mental disorder, please tell me!! I try to stop, but it's like addictive. I can't even watch a movie without re-acting the scenes out as James Dean... P.S. the character I made up was named Rolando Salvatore not Ronaldo Salvatore sorry...

Omg this is so weird. I always pretend that I am Steven Tyler. I'm an 18 yr old girl and I'm totally obsessed with him. So I pretend that I'm him when he was younger and that I'm famous and I sing Aerosmith songs in my room and act like him. I talk like him and even try to dress like him. I'll pretend that I hangout with other rockstars, meet women, and live their kind of life. Idk why though. I've been doing it for as long as I can remember. I know there has to be something wrong with me cause nobody I know acts the way I do. I really wish I was a rockstar sometimes though.

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I'm like this but mines even weirder. I pretend to be Cheryl Cole and pretend I'm on her videos and on interviews, all because I used to act with my older sister from a young age, now almost everyday of my life I put music on in my bedroom and act out Cheryl's videos...how crazy am I...

I can very much relate to this!!

thank god! I thought there was nobody out there like me! Even my family don\'t know, it\'s too embarrassing!

I am so glad I have found so many people who do this too! But I have another question; I often even enact the scenes in reality! I close myself in my room and talk and enact every scene or conversation. Is THAT normal? I have kept myself hidden for a very very long time. Recently I decided to write a book, so I don't need it as often as I did before; but I cannot get rid of it completely.

Omg. I do this too! I thought I was the only one!!

I am so happy I found this post. I've been trying to figure out what's up with me for so long. So basically what I do is after I watch an episode of a tv show or read a good book, I start imagining myself as a new character in whatever book or movie it is.Before I sleep, I act out all these scenes in my head until I fall asleep. It was okay at first, but lately I think I've been doing it too much. I've been watching this tv show called Falling Skies and after each episode, I'd go to my room and close my eyes and imagine that I was in that episode I'd just watched. I'd hook myself up with one of the main leads, ben and make him be my boyfriend that would take a bullet for me. At times, instead of studying for an exam for the next day, I'd be imagining all these scenarios in my head. I thought I had something wrong with me at first, but now I feel relieved after reading all your comments on this post.

I have the exact same story as you, since i was maybe 5 or 6 its been happening, my favorite TV show of all time (at that age) was buffy the vampire slayer and i used to imagine myself as drusilla, with her british accent and devious thoughts, i wuld imagine living with Spike or Angel, fighting with Buffy. Then it was Childs play, i would actually imagine myself as Tiffany Ray. i always knew i was different i just never wanted to admit it, i also never told anyone (and still havent) although sometimes i think about writing down everything ive gone threw and making a book out of it, i always dismiss the idea however. I'm glad there is finally people i can relate too.

Omg. I can't believe I found more people like this! Mine is really similar to all of yours, I make up someone from scratch and putthem in the celebrity world. Or any real life situation so its more of a distraction from reality. I think it started when I was a little kid because I've always been an only child and growing up I didn't have any friends. I'm turning 16 in a few months and I was starting to worry that I was some psychopath.
Sometimes what I make things happen to my characters, affects my mood in real life. Because of that I get really weird mood swings.
I wanna get rid of whatever I have, but more than that - I dont. Its the only place where I feel fully accepted and everything I've ever wanted to feel about myself. It keeps me up sometimes, and other times I have to wake up because I feel as if I have to act it out or something. I can't read a book long enough without having my made up character act in that fictional world.

I want to want to leave it. But its the only tjing that doesnt get me really depressed. I stopped doing to for a while and forced myself to find out what sort of things I wanted to do not based on my character.

What should I do? :) xo

I have the same problem. I was always so lonely as a child and even now. From as far as I can remember I was always picked on for being gay when I myself didn't know what it was.
I would lock myself in my room and then I just slip into my own world where everything was perfect.
I was perfect, had perfect friends.
I don't stay in a character too long.
Usually they were just disney characters that I was obsessed with. I just imagine really dramatic scenes and put my self in there. I come out to be very dramatic most of the times.
My loneliness was lessend when I met a guy. Things went on for a year and I loved him so much more than I have ever loved anything.
He left me last month because of my dramatic side.
And I have been trying to get it all away and that's how I ended up here...

OMG i thought i was the only one that did this, i though i was going mad, iv done this ever since i can remember im now 29 so a very long time, does anyone know what it this called? If theres even a name for it.. Knowing that other people have this same fantasy world as made me feel a whole lot better as i thought i was the only weird one to do this lol x

Am tired of it, always talking to myself, making up alternate realities just to escape the horror and disrepair of this one. its mainly because am depressed and alone. Don't have many friends and the ones i do have may not consider me as a friend, so its one sided. Everyday i interact with the computer, aimlessly surfing the web ignoring my real life. i want to stop and i tried many times but i always end up in the same position or worse. One step forward ten backward. this abnormally has affected my real life. School grades are not where there suppose to be not for a premed student. Today i came to this website because am tired and this will be the last of my problem. ITS DONE!!!!!!!

When I pretend I am someone else, I also make up other people to be around me... I also make up fantasy things that cannot be true, but I convince myself that they are, like I'm a wizard, or vampire, or the like. Is this mental? Please help!

Thank God!!! I thought I was the only one. I do this almost all day and I could never tell my friends because I'm scared they would leave me. But, what I do is a bit different. I don't take on the lives of another real person. I make them up. I will pretend to be a character and I will make up all of their friends. Thats not even the worst part. I really like bands like MCR and PATD so, for about 2 or 3 months I got so emotionaly attached to Gerard Way I had subconciously taught myself that I was dating him. I think I might be mental and I have never told anyone any of this. Also, I have 2 or 3 friends but I found myself getting for and more distant from them.

I'm 16 and I do that too...I really didn't think anyone else my age or older did, and it comes in phases like what the guy who commented before me said. It's kinda interesting.

Oh thank god! Thank god im not the only one. I am almost 15, and, well, I don't pretend to be a celebrity, but instead, ever since I was a young boy, my wild imagination went off, and I pretended to be all sorts of these movie characters. For instance, just two years ago, I pretended I was Rinzler from Tron Legacy. He just looked awesome. I had to. The thing is, these character pretending things come on in phases. By that, I mean it is like an obsession, and I change from character to character once I get bored of one or the other. I usually change over a period of months to years. It is strange really. Also, after I watch an action movie, I develop a feeling for just the remainder of the day I watched it on about it. I feel like I am that main character. I can all of a sudden jump to the floor and roll, James Bond style. This, though, only lasts for the remainder of the day I have watched that movie on. Then, I go back to being that long term character I was. But, there's more. Ever since I was a child, I imagined some cyborg like robot, like a test project tested by this robotic race, called XYZ4. Sounds like something straight out of a movie, doesn't it? Well, surprisingly enough, this one wasn't. I imagined it myself, and now, basically, I am "it". I kind of use it as a platform to be everything else I have dreamed of being. It is a super intelligent artificial intelligence if you like, hard wired into me. I know it is all fake, but, I just don't see why I can't stop thinking about it. I thought to myself, "Ok, what is wrong. Stop. You can do it. Just stop". This way of thought has not really changed much in my life, but O have started noticing that I am the silent one. The lonely one. Well, not exactly lonely, but, I have trouble talking to people, a small conversation is hard to have. I just wish I was normal. I don't know whever it is those stupid imaginations, or something else, but I can never do it. Not even one simple conversation. That is, when I'm alone with somebody. When I'm with a group of people, it is fine, because one of the others always find something to talk about. But, when it is just me, usually, it is a silent talk. I don't know what to do anymore. Though I am usually the funny one in class, because I tell good jokes, and when the teacher speaks, or shows something on the board, I tend to yawn at it, just a basic conversation is, well, difficult. Anyways, though it is pretty stupid sounding, these things help me chilled, and escape from my everyday troubles. I am a calm, relaxed person. I can keep my cool under the greatest of situations. One problem I've been having though, is weight loss. Sure, I am 6 foot 1 at the age of 14 and a half, but 90 kg is a bit big don't you think? That has been bugging me. Anyways, I am glad I found someone else with the same thing. It just makes it feel more normal. Thank you for sharing your experience, and here is mine.

I do the same thing! And I thought I was the only one. We have to try and overcome these fantasies that we've made up...