Guy Pretending To Be A Girl Online....

Hey, I am a 26 year old guy who has been pretending to be his ex girlfriend online now for the past 2 years. I use her pictures to role play as her with other guys who are into the same role play fetish as me, which involves me playing as her as a villain who is either arrested or killed in the end by the hero. I jack off to her pictures while I am role playing and it really makes me feel ashamed. I just don't know how to stop. I started doing this when I went away to college a few years ago. I live alone and have made friends and kept really busy with school but I still spend lots of time online pretending to be her and role playing.

Also, I've worn women's clothes in the past and jacked off in them because I like how certain fabrics feel. It makes me feel like I am wacko or something, and I've even gone out late at night and walked around in women's clothes. Not in public, so I don't consider myself a cross dresser because I am not really into walking around in public dressed as a woman. But I would role play while wearing leggings and jack off in them. I feel really guilty about it all.

I also feel guilty about my fetish of bad girls being defeated. I know lots of people are into it, but I feel it's causing me guilt.

Does anyone else find this to be really bizarre and something I should get help about?
ziggyiggystardust ziggyiggystardust
26-30, M
May 7, 2012