I Don't Know How To Stop Pretending
I'm a girl and i've been pretending to be a guy for about 7 years. It started out as a joke between a friend and I and I never meant to take it this far but I never knew how to stop either. I've had a few "online girlfriends" and created a whole life for this guy. I've always had self esteem issues and that doesn't justify what I did but I feel that by pretending to be someone else I can forget how negative I am about who I am or what I look like. I've always believed I was straight but now I think I might have feelings for the girl i'm talking to. She doesn't deserve what i'm doing to her and I have tried to "break up" with her but she has gotten to a point where she threatened to hurt herself and has low self esteem issues. I feel that if I tell her the truth she might do something stupid. But at the same time i'm tired of the lies and living a double life. I have become so consumed with this other character that I lost myself along the way. Not only that but i'm bringing an innocent person down with me. I don't know what to do anymore. I don't have anyone to talk to about this. I'm sorry about all the rambling I had to get this out.