I Act Therefore, Who Am I?
I've been 'pretending' for a long, long time. I can get to a point where i believe I'm someone else, and my personality can change dramatically in the space of a few days or weeks. It gives me the confidence of the Hollywood actors and Rock stars that i admire ,and it gives me a way of escaping the self-destructive and negative thoughts that i frequently have about myself. It really is amazing to see how much people change toward me when I'm enthralled in one of my roles.
However, in the long term i think that this has damaged my self-esteem even more and i have got to a point where i have totally lost touch with any sense of identity.