I Act Therefore, Who Am I?

I've been 'pretending' for a long, long time. I can get to a point where i believe I'm someone else, and my personality can change  dramatically in the space of a few days or weeks. It gives me the confidence of the Hollywood actors and Rock stars that i admire ,and it gives me a way of escaping the self-destructive and negative thoughts that i frequently have about myself. It really is amazing to see how much people change toward me  when I'm enthralled in one of my roles. 

However, in the long term i think that this has damaged my self-esteem even more and i have got to a point where i have totally lost touch with any sense of identity.  

hutcho20 hutcho20
4 Responses Jan 4, 2009

You may be closer to who you Really are than most people... after all, the most genuine fake is still only a very good fake :)

I do the same thing and have made up a total of 3 personas all of whom are in the movie industry and have won several academy awards and grammys. It is good to know that I'm not the only one and it helps me to figure this sh*t out.

It is such a comfort to know im not the only one.

I thought I was the only one... but i pretend alone in my room with the music really loud. I've been doing it since i was 13 and i'm 18 now. I can pretend for hours...and i actually look forward to going to my room to pretend