Smile With Tears In Your Eyes

Fake it till you make it. Thats my motto because if I really said and showed how I feel, I would be considered unstable and crazy. Crazy is so taboo. You cant ever say "I want to kill myself", or admit to having a mental illness or let whats going on inside of you show through without being thrown in a mental hospital and forcefed Prozac and tranquilizers. I keep this pain and anger buried deep iside, covered by a facade of happiness, friendliness, smiles and positivity. Eventually I can smile for real and my head clears.
tmarker86 tmarker86
26-30, F
1 Response Dec 15, 2012

Yeah, you can't really advertise it. The people who know are the people here and my family, and my family is in complete denial. Have you been to a Dr and being treated? I read some conflicting info that you are off meds, but self medicating.

I have been to many therapists, psychologists, and psychiatrists. I have been on and off every med imaginable. I smoke weed and whatever I can to soothe the anxiety.