Red Wine

i have an eating disorder and depression. i want to die sometimes. i wouldn't ever do it. my best friend and mom would miss me too much, if no one else. she would probably kill herself. and it would hurt and be messy. but ****, i just want to not exist sometimes. drinking just takes the edge off. sometimes it makes me feel ******, but at least i can laugh at it. i probably drink too much. sometimes i feel such love for people and humanity when i drink. like i wish i could hug the world and solve its problems. ha. i sound bipolar. oh, hey red wine. 

pinkpaintedshirt pinkpaintedshirt
22-25, F
2 Responses Mar 5, 2010

I could use a glass of wine right now to unwind and make all the nonsense go away. I can't wait to leave is all behind me...for sure as my New Year ob<x>jective. Hell Yea!

Booze is not a reason to kill yourself. I admit that I hit it pretty hard more often than I should, but find a way to lift a glass to your fellow man, listen to your favorite music, and enjoy the mellow feeling. If you think you have a problem, then you probably do. See a therapist, find out what that icky thing is in the back of your mind, then get back to the cab sauvignon.