I always think "what if"? What if I never pushed that person away? It only takes one person to betray you and you completely change, you learn not to trust and keep your guard up. I always question people and their motives, it honestly scares me when people have pure intentions, it seems too good to be true and I hate that I think that way because some people actually do. I think my problem is I live in fear of getting hurt even more than I have, therefore I put up this wall to protect myself, but I know that sometimes in life you will get hurt and that's just the way it is. I just haven't learned to accept that yet.
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1 Response Jul 16, 2014

the truth is that if you are intent on pushing that person away then your really the cause of your own problem while its safer to build a wall from pain you forget to understand that pain and hurt can make you stronger and wiser it lets you know hey i wont make that mistake again and after awhile it pays off especially when you give that right person a chance who knows youll be surprised the amount of heartache a guy will go through to show you happiness