I have a big problem with pushing people away.... I have huge trust issues and when they come close to me I end up pushing them away when I don't want to...I just don't want to get hurt like I did in the past... and I push them away so I won't be sad when they walk out my life... I don't want to push them away... I want to keep them... I'M dumb... I'M tired of being scared... I don't want to shut the door to the world...I want to walk in it and be able to get hurt and say oh well... but idk.