That Is That

A few minutes to post my important personal experience,  I can do that, however, connecting with people is what I cant seem to experience.  I am a loner of sorts,  I do have trust issues and they are not nagotiable.   I do not hate ,  I harbor no grudges and  I do not seek vengance.  Each life has a story, be it as it may.    I didnt have the tradiitional  family as a child so i experienced drugs, jail, confusion and anger at an early age. The serenity of being with my self by my self  became  a choice thru out the years giving me a sense of peace and protection.  I did let my guard down for a few years and  made some bad choices,  the consequences  took many years to sort and sift thru and so I made the choice for a second time to keep all at a arms length and that is that. What I can feel is limited and what I cant feel I dont recognize so I try and spare my self of any hallmark moments.  I dont push people away, it is just more simple to not let them in.   Thats the way it is...

judahcole judahcole
51-55, F
1 Response Feb 8, 2010

lOVE YOURSELF FROM THE INSIDE OUT. YOU HAVE BREATH OF LIFE & LOVE INSIDE YOU. ONCE YOU LEARN TO LOVE IT CORRECTLY AND THE TEMPLE(YOUR BODY) IT RESIDES IN...YOU WILL HAVE CREATED SELF LOVE, SELF PROTECTION, AND SELF GROWTH. NOTHING ATTRACTS AND KEEPS OTHER FOLKS AROUND YOU BETTER THAN THAT. <br />
WHEN YOU FINISH DOING THIS THOUGH ... YOU ARE NOT GOING TO HAVE THAT CRUSHING NEED FOR OTHER PEOPLE THE WAY YOU DO NOW. YOU WILL BE ABLE TO WAIT FOR THE ICING ON THE CAKE. HUGS, LIVIGWELL