My Health Is Not Great

I constantly feel like I have a lump in my throat 

and migraines that are blinding.


I feel so sad about life 

sometimes I wish I would just die

I have put on weight and

I often wake not being able to breathe

they say that fat people have wipe pipe issues 

I already did have from the whooping cough as a baby

I just want out of this world

people want me dead... people hate me and all the wrong people like me who I hate and 

I got to get it on track and start making new people come into my world and the right people like me

and wrong people go to hell.


I just don't want any more kens and fat old farts around me

I want to be around the beautiful people 


I am sick of Elizabeth, Sue and Louise competing with me for men when I want to get married and have a baby


they should be past that now... unless they want to have a baby for me so I can go night clubbing

with a cute cool young guy


all my life my relatives have done this with me... compete for men... 

now they do it with young ones and I am sick of it.... young men should not want their ugly old bodies


i was supposed to find a cute young guy as a teen and get married and have  a baby in 1994... 


its not my fault that people didn't get their act together and do what the world expected of them



czaristacrystals czaristacrystals
36-40, F
1 Response May 7, 2012

i wish I could afford to see my chinese massage man...<br />
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I really need a massage... I have such a bad headache... <br />
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I might have to go back to doctor ...something is not right with me at the moment.