I Quit Smoking Weed
Hi I am 24 and have smoked since i was 13. I have been trying to stop for about 6 months, un successfully.
AFter smoking it so long it had become less of a ritual and more of a way of life. i felt normal after smoking a big joint at 9am in the morning and wasting my days doing nothing.
Anyway after getting myself into a lot of debt and feeling depressed about been so controlled by it, i started trying to stop. I have previously kicked a more casual adiction to ecstasy but weed was just like bread to me.
I tried going to n.a. for months, but i didnt get along with the small group here very well and felt pressured by them.
I now see a drugs worker one to one and i am trying to talk about my problems more.
the longest i have gone without it is 2 weeks. I get very panicky and anxiouis and loose hope that i can go without it when im clean.
SInce trying to stop so many times, i have paid of my debt , or most of it, and i am much more on track then when i first started trying to quit.
It has become hard now as i feel im doing better (smokiing 20 a week now, it was 20 a day ) but i know if i carry on smoking it will spiral back out of control.
Today i couldnt get anymore and feel really anxious, but i am trying to remember i really wanted to quit.theres never a good time to quit it seems something always come s up where i think i cant quit with that coming. weed is so depresing and i feel trapped.
I read your stories here and was inspired to share mine. thanks
AFter smoking it so long it had become less of a ritual and more of a way of life. i felt normal after smoking a big joint at 9am in the morning and wasting my days doing nothing.
Anyway after getting myself into a lot of debt and feeling depressed about been so controlled by it, i started trying to stop. I have previously kicked a more casual adiction to ecstasy but weed was just like bread to me.
I tried going to n.a. for months, but i didnt get along with the small group here very well and felt pressured by them.
I now see a drugs worker one to one and i am trying to talk about my problems more.
the longest i have gone without it is 2 weeks. I get very panicky and anxiouis and loose hope that i can go without it when im clean.
SInce trying to stop so many times, i have paid of my debt , or most of it, and i am much more on track then when i first started trying to quit.
It has become hard now as i feel im doing better (smokiing 20 a week now, it was 20 a day ) but i know if i carry on smoking it will spiral back out of control.
Today i couldnt get anymore and feel really anxious, but i am trying to remember i really wanted to quit.theres never a good time to quit it seems something always come s up where i think i cant quit with that coming. weed is so depresing and i feel trapped.
I read your stories here and was inspired to share mine. thanks
By:
phar
Age:
22-25
,
Male
