The Worm

2009 doesn't seem that long ago but i'm getting closer to my 2 year mark after a long and peaceful quit. i have no intention of starting ever again and am so grateful to have beat this beast. i wanted to say though, that nicotine is a monster. make no mistake. this monster is one of the worst in the entire world of addictive poisons. this monster is so powerful once it has a hold on you, even Stephen King wrote of his lifelong battle with cigarette addiction in his novels and compared it to something demonic.

i felt the sickening worm of addiction anxiety last night as i was trying to relax into sleep. any long-term smoker knows what i'm talking about. almost TWO YEARS on this monster reminds me it was once in control. can you believe that? never EVER start smoking, it will take years from your life - even if you don't get cancer or some horrible illness from it, you will stress yourself to death worrying that you have one or are going to get one as you continue to smoke more and more to feed the worm and keep it at bay.

i can share with all quitters quite positive and happy news though. i was in hospital for a routine appointment and had my lungs checked not long ago. 100% clear. i am relieved. i spent up to 9 years being aware that my lungs were filling with phlegm and poisonous waste from tobacco and i coughed insanely every night for up to 2 hours before i could sleep before i quit. now i don't cough at all and i can breathe and sleep easily. i'm so happy to still be quit and even though i felt that disgusting worm of anxiety inside me last night i will continue to win and never EVER take another puff. so far it's been the only thing that works, lol. ;)