For Today

For Today(with tears in my eyes),due to the fact i know this will be a rough ride, no more i say to my friend the smoke-I have been smoking since i was 12yrs old now i am in my 40's i read some stories of some dear people on this site. I can feel the pain in side and my heart goes out to them.On this day Sept 12-2012 time 5:13pm i have decided i will not smoke again. My smokes saved me in stress and anxiety-now i am making a promise to my self and other witnesses i am going to quit now. i will keep a diary let you all know how its going--realy i am going to do it i belive i can. xo---(still in deniel lying to myself) hope i can do it.
hazey42 hazey42
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10 Responses Sep 14, 2012

I am trying coldturkey

You can do it. Are you using any aids or trying to go cold turkey?

4 last night and one in the middle of night 3am i am afraid i wont sleep--i bought sleeping pill only used one and did not work------ok i know i suck----i realy truly want to stop but cold turkey--i got to get out of this rut----11:58am only 72 hours i know and its out of my system----man just to make it 24 hr is all i pray for to be smoke free 24hr one day in my life.

Its 1:19 Sept 19-12 everytime i try to quit my smoking friend calls me (hi) it such a concidence. o.k. honestly i had 4 smokes last night. now there all gone--so i will try again today and tonight. Faith is what i will try tonight--(praying)

Do yourself a favour and don't keep any smokes around. Pse don't con yourself that you have to have the will-power to give up with a pack in your pocket. It won't work!

Throw them away...

Day two its another day-i smoked about 4 last night--to day i put the smokes out of sight--(you know what they say out of site out of mind). for today i will try harder.

Truthfully i had 3 smokes last night--ur so right i am emotional about this and crying because it is all i want to quit.

Truthfully i had 3 smokes last night--ur so right i am emotional about this and crying because it is all i want to quit.

Your "friend the smoke" is killing you. Not a great friend. If you want this bad enough you will do it. Your so called friend is a horrible control freak. You don't need them, you need to control you.