8th Time The Charm???The day was ended in a way I didn't expect, I never thought I would wake up a non smoker and go to bed a smoker. The day I was offered my first cigarette at 18 years old I didn't think much of it, I took a deep puff, coughed and hated it. I maybe had a cigarette every 2-3 weeks after and didn't really think about it. A 2 years later, my boyfriend and I broke up and right then and there the cravings hit. Since August of 2000 I have smoked 7-10 cigarettes a day and everyday I try to think of a way to quit while making room in my budget for $10.75 a pack.
Over my years of trying to quit I have heard how easy it would be for me because I only smoke a half pack a day...it really doesn't matter the amount, its the craving. I have cut myself, hallucinated, had a seizure (due to a panic attack of not being able to smoke), been violently nauseous, and had severe headache...all from my withdrawals. It has been so painful but I have to get through the pain to get to where I need to be.
This time I am taking a new approach, I am not buying tons of gum, I am not setting a date, i am just quitting. I woke up this morning and had this little 2 puff short of a cig and it gave me no value. So here I go 8th time, I pray it works this time.
laughitout 31-35, F 3 Responses 1 Sep 21, 2012