I Was Great!

I really regret giving it up. I don't even know why i did. I was so good at it. I just couldn't be bothered anymore. And i hate myself for it.

I really was amazing. It's probably what i should have done for the rest of my life.

I aced practically every aspect of track and field. And because of this i was age champion for every school year. I participated, and usually aced, in state level championships high jump, long jump, triple jump, discus, hurdles, 100m, 200m, 400m, 800m, 1.5k, i did the 1.5k walk also - which was something i was really good at.

I realise now that i must have really taken that for granted at the time. I didn't appreciate the fact that it was something i actually had real talent in and could have pursued as a long term dream. I wish i didn't give it up. It's hard to get back into such things as you get older.

And everyone knew that I was the champion!!! I miss the feeling of being the best at something i do. I don't have anything to feel that way about anymore.

That feeling of absolutely flogging yourself, and winning, and knowing you gave it ABSOLUTELY all the energy you could. It's amazing.

I get teary sometimes when i watch athletics and mainly sprint runners when they win. When that jamaican guy one last time i just burst into tears of happiness. It was happiness because i knew that feeling. And it is SUCH a good feeling. I can't even describe...

jasminjane jasminjane
18-21, F
Mar 19, 2009