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I Feel Like My Life Is Falling Apart

I have had a lot of cruel things happen to me this month and now I found out that I wound up in mental ward, But I have no memory of getting there, but I do remember being tied down and taken some where and I blacked out. I dont know what happened, my counselor says dont dwell on it. but I cant stop thinking about it. Im so confused and scared. I wanna find out what happened but I dont know where to begin or what to say. I feel so close to a break down, so stupid and embarassed, thats why I removed my picture. I feel so stupid and hurt to let this person destroy my life, some one I loved and trusted. Wouldnt you wanna know what happened to you?
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I have DID, and there are times when I have no memories for a certain amount of time. When things are really stirred up I can loose entire days. I don't usually loose more. But honestly, how would I know?
But I am really freaked out when I loose a day. Big pieces of my life are blank. Like years. but it's not so.. i don't know, not so close? Having no clue as to what I've said or done during the missing time is scary. and only people who've lost time know what that feels like.
I average about 3-4 hours of blank time a week. usually in one hour blocks. and it's not just loosing track of time. that happens to me same as any one, and it's different. The experience of it is very different. but I do like to try and BS myself into believing that's what happened.
So, yes I would, and do want to know...

I have also had the worst few months.. ended up in a behavioral center, loooong story but i kept my hand.. lol! Now with help from my phsyciatrist and God I want to change my life around for my new baby.

I have also had the worst few months.. ended up in a behavioral center, loooong story but i kept my hand.. lol! Now with help from my phsyciatrist and God I want to change my life around for my new baby.

I have also had the worst few months.. ended up in a behavioral center, loooong story but i kept my hand.. lol! Now with help from my phsyciatrist and God I want to change my life around for my new baby.