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I Realise That Life Is Short

My Beautiful Mom

By: BILLYMADISONJ
Written on October 21st, 2012
Age: 41-45 , Male
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  • Daddyslolita

    I've come to know many families of patients with Alzheimer's disease. It is quite a difficult situation to cope with, and as the title says...life is short.
    Thank you for sharing this tender moment with us Billy...you're strong, strong for both you and your mum. God bless you.

    3 days ago
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    • BILLYMADISONJ

      Thank you for your sweet comment. God bless you too my friend.

      3 days ago
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  • neuilly

    Your a very sweet and loving person,and not afraid to appear so.. Your mom may not remember you when she sees you....but....her heart remembers. She remembers you, but to her you look different. To her, you may very still be the little boy who ran into her arms when he was hurt, and the little boy she dreams about, and waits all day for. To her, you may still the 6 or 9 year old, and not the grown man you are today.....So, Don't for a minute think she has forgotten you, or forgotten about you......because she hasn't.

    3 days ago
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    • BILLYMADISONJ

      Thank you neuilly for your kind words.........I try sooo hard to think this..........
      it is just soo difficult. Thank you my friend.

      3 days ago
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    • neuilly

      (((((((hugs)))))))

      love, mom
      consider your self.......adopted.

      3 days ago
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  • jml2000

    Sorry to hear of your mom's illness. Alzheimer's is such a cruel disease.

    3 days ago
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    • BILLYMADISONJ

      It IS a cruel disease...........thank you my friend.

      3 days ago
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  • ryan7373

    I am so sorry for your loss its so hard to sit and watch someone you love waste away, I lost both my parents before my 25th birthday and my mom went so quickly I never got to say goodbye and my dad he had stage four lung cancer and I watch him waste away to nothing, beat the cancer and then die from a complication of the radiation, I know how you feel and the heartache is at times overwhelming, especially when it comes too my mom we were so close I feel like when she left, part of me went with her, all I can tell you is spend as much time with her as you can and write down your feelings and thoughts and emotions in a letter and when the time comes that she leaves you tuck the letter in with her it sounds a little odd but it will help you to get the closer you need and get the chance to say goodbye if you need a friend who knows how you feel all to well send me a note...xxx

    4 days ago
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    • BILLYMADISONJ

      Awww..........thank you Ryan. I love your idea of the letter..........Im gonna do that.
      Its nice to know you are my friend to talk to.......I will add you now dear. thank you

      4 days ago
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  • Kittygalore23

    So sorry to hear about your mother Billy ...you know even though she doesn't know who you are she's still your mother the woman that bought you into this world and God bless you for being the good son that you are to her...keep talking to her..talk to her of all the good times, even though she doesn't understand or know you do it never tire of doing it no matter what she is still your mother and you know if she could she would hold you to comfort you, read to her sometimes too...i know it's hard for you we all expect our parents to be there for us keeping us on the straight and narrow, and it's hard when such a cruel sickness like this robs them from us there is anger pain and a whole load of emotions but Billy give it all over to God because he will pave the way for you and never cease in praying for your dear mother and for yourself to get you through such a painful time ...my thoughts and prayers are with you my friend XX

    4 days ago
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    • BILLYMADISONJ

      You are such a wonderful friend to have Kitty. Thank you for your input and words of wisdom. I will love her and talk to her everyday for as long as she is around. Thank you soo much dear.

      4 days ago
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  • Rowanflower

    Hi there, Im a social worker and worked in a lovely residential house for a few years which specialised in care for ppl, dementia , Alzheimer's ect ... I loved that job and yes it's upsetting at times, I would just like to let you know that I believe somewhere in your mothers mind she knows it's you, I've watched families come in and get upset because they believe there mum, dad ect has no awareness of who they are but it's my job to comfort and I've seen residents eyes light up when I mention relatives names or going through photos. It is a very cruel illness and I'm happy you still see and comfort your mum , some families give up as they think what's the point if my mum dosnt know me which is very sad

    4 days ago
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    • BILLYMADISONJ

      Thank you soo much Rowanflower for letting me know of your experience. I do believe what you say that my mum knows me deep down inside and loves me like I love her. Your words inspire me....thank you again.

      4 days ago
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  • rutjay

    Hello Billy... the real Billy, that is. I read the post that your mom has Alzheimer's disease. Because, I have experience in pain. There are no specific words to say to a heart that is in pain. But, I would like to share a nice story with you. During my graduate years I did some volunteering for Hospice in my town. I am from El Paso, Texas. Where everything is BIGGER and BETTER.

    Anyhow, I visited this man who had Alzheimer's. That day that I visited was very different the man started to be very agressive with his wife. I was talking to him trying to calm him down. He told me how he met his wife... and how much he loved her. Also, how beautiful she looked when she approched him... I was just mesmerized by all of his comments. His wife was infront of him. She was in tears.

    At times life shows us different things. Whatever is the life lesson... only God knows. But, we need to be greatful for all the special moments. I will pray for you that God
    blesses your life with patience. Lots of hugs and kisses....

    5 days ago
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    • BILLYMADISONJ

      I am soo thankful dear that you shared this story with me. Its true only God know what is in the plans.........and I try to accept the fact that my mom doesnt know me on the outside........but still loves me on the inside. Youre such a good friend. Lots of hugs and kisses too.........

      4 days ago
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  • NewDay

    My mum is my best friend an she almost died just recently so I am overwhelmingly grateful to still have her , I can only imagine how hard it is for you, but you are amazing to be there for her every day, its exhausting emotionally and mentally, her heart is proud of you.

    a week ago
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    • BILLYMADISONJ

      Its really killing me to see her like this everyday........thank you.........

      a week ago
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  • CreateTVT

    My grandpa had Alzheimer's and dementia and used to cuss me out, you just have to do what's best for them and know they don't mean it.

    May 11
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    • BILLYMADISONJ

      Im sorry you went through this with your grandpa.............I know you know that them cussing us out is just part of the disease..........thank you for your kind words.

      May 11
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  • fancyoak

    Happy Mothers Day to your mom Billy I hope it's a good day for her.

    May 11
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    • BILLYMADISONJ

      That was such a sweet thing to say dear..........thank you. Ive added you as a friend.

      May 11
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  • Prokamin

    Happy Mother Day to your maman Billy!

    May 10
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    • BILLYMADISONJ

      Awwww..........youre the first person to say that to me baby! mama says thank you!

      May 10
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  • IowaGirl1995

    Billy, I don't want to spout any cliches, so I'll say instead thanks for sharing something so very personal and heart-rending. I admire you for being there for someone you love. So many others just walk away. I'm listening if you ever want to share more.

    May 9
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    • BILLYMADISONJ

      That means soo much to me young lady. I sure will keep you in mind. Thank you very much.

      May 9
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  • MANITU

    Truly sorry to hear that,,,,,,unfortunately I know where you're coming from,,,,, my mother passed away from a bout with cancer,,, shittt ain't easy

    May 9
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    • BILLYMADISONJ

      Im soo sorry you lost your mother buddy........its very hard. Thank you for commenting..........

      May 9
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    • IowaGirl1995

      Manitu, do you mind me asking how you deal with that kind of loss? I lost a relative not too long ago & haven't been able to get over it. I keep reading the self-help books, but nothing has seemed to help. Sorry you're going through loss.

      May 9
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    • MANITU

      With me it was drinking (I don't recommend it though)

      May 10
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    • IowaGirl1995

      I also don't recommend self medicating with sugar, but it's what I did. Thanks for sharing. Hope you find contentedness.

      May 10
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    • MANITU

      It actually does get better with time,,,,,, and we'll always have our memories,,, I know we'll both be fine,, have a nice weekend if possible :)

      May 10
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    • cargan2015

      IowaGirl1995 given whats working for me from loss of my grandmom a week ago today is just keeping friends close and focusing on good memories of her as much as I can

      May 10
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  • Erotic14u

    I admire that you are able to talk about your feelings. I know what you mean. My Mother has Alzheimer and all my life she hated me. Now, i am the only one that visits her and i bathe her, dress her and make conversation with her and all the while she calls me by my sisters name. I don't mind. I actually have no feelings for her. I have never shed a tear because of HER.
    I love those who truly experienced a true mother with the nurturing feelings..

    May 8
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    • BILLYMADISONJ

      Im soo sorry about what you have been through with your mom. I do believe you will feel much better in the future knowing you were here for her now. Thank you for sharing this with me dear.

      May 8
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    • Erotic14u

      Thank you once more for your caring thoughts. But I truly feel nothing. I accept that i must do for her what others won't. It's a beautiful thing to see and hear that others have normal relationships with their mother's. Bless you!

      May 8
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    • BILLYMADISONJ

      Thank you........Bless you too!

      May 8
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  • cargan2015

    I know how you must feel its like youve lost her but not really because you cant see her. I lost my grand mother finnaly this past weekend though she had bad dementia and little azlhiemers and it was like she really left us year and half ago before her husband Easter last year

    May 8
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    • BILLYMADISONJ

      You can soo relate to what im going through. So sorry about your grand mother.
      It was very nice of you to share your story. Thank you .

      May 8
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    • cargan2015

      yeah and it wasnt my first experience with Alzheimers my greatgrandfather my grandmothers dad died to it when I was 13

      May 8
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    • BILLYMADISONJ

      Sooo sorry to hear that............God Bless

      May 8
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  • genspirii

    Poor honey...I am so sorry. This is very hard to go through for the family...I hope you spend time talking to her. Even if she doesn't know you, a friendly face is always good...;-p

    May 7
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    • BILLYMADISONJ

      yes honey.........i spend alot of time with her doing just that............thank you honey.

      May 7
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  • fatgurrrl

    Billy, I feel such deep anguish for you. My mama passed away recently, but she knew each and everyone of her children and grandchildren, speaking to us all when death was at her doorstep. I can't comprehend the pain you must have to not be cherished as a Mother loves her Son. I know death hurts, but the combination of death and the blight of your memories together is an astronomical toll. I will be keeping you in my thoughts...<3

    May 7
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    • BILLYMADISONJ

      Thank you dear for your amazing loving comments....I really appreciate them and am soo sorry you lost your mama recently :(

      May 7
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  • SkidlelyBoeBoe

    :(

    May 6
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  • sofyablank

    My great grandmother also has the same thing, she thinks she is married and got 10 kinds , she come up with weird stories and .....she doesn't know who I am

    May 1
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    • BILLYMADISONJ

      its just soo sad.....sorry about your grandmother

      May 1
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  • HT69

    I feel for u hun its hard to go through xxx if u ever need to vent or just talk pm me x

    May 1
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    • BILLYMADISONJ

      thank you hun.........thats very sweet of you

      May 1
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    • HT69

      My husband works in an Alzheimer's and dementia care home so i know its hard for people to deal and you never need to feel alone in it xc

      May 1
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    • BILLYMADISONJ

      youre a nice woman to have as a friend........thank you

      May 1
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    • HT69

      No problem hun x

      May 1
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  • Thereseanna

    I don't know you but I came across this story. My heart goes out to you as you're suffering this kind of heartache.

    Apr 28
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    • BILLYMADISONJ

      I dont know you either but it was very sweet of you to say that.........thank you very much.

      Apr 28
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    • Thereseanna

      You're very welcome.

      Apr 28
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    • BILLYMADISONJ

      I added you as a friend kind woman

      Apr 28
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    • Thereseanna

      Thank you...I added you as well.

      Apr 28
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  • Orshay

    My prayers to you and your family....may you find the strength for each other at this challenging time.....her mind may not remember you...but her heart does

    Apr 24
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    • BILLYMADISONJ

      I totally agree with you dear..........mom DOES have me in her heart. Thank you soo much.

      Apr 24
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  • peacelovehugs

    Awwwww D; I'm so sorry Billy. My prayers and thoughts go out to you

    Apr 23
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  • Coldflesh

    That sucks, would be very hard to deal with, glad to see you sticking on the happy face and bouncing from page to page leaving a smile. New here but wondering about these stories of jail?..... Lol in time I will know, I deleted all my FB accounts after my new one got a 15 day ban within the first 3 hours. Oops, those people have no since of humor. Peace.

    Apr 23
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    • BILLYMADISONJ

      I have to pretend to be happy in this life when dealing with my sick mom...............
      the happy face is because I want my friends to be happy.........
      EP jail just means I speak my mind and EP likes to censor me.....
      thank you my friend.

      Apr 23
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  • MissWorld33

    Sorry to hear. It has to be hard watching someone you love suffer from Alzheimers. That is such a sad disease. I watched my mom suffer from cancer for 3 years and I lost her when I was 25. It's a hard thing to learn to leave without your parents. thoughts are with you .....

    Apr 21
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    • BILLYMADISONJ

      thank you dear........im sorry about having to watch your mom suffer too......its all soo very sad :( God Bless you

      Apr 21
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    • spooksue648

      hey hope u r doing ok , it is difficult to deal with my mom was just diagnosed with huge mass on lungs she only has 20 percent of lung capacity left. she is bed ridden and i have been seein herat nursing home which is very difficult at times. because drs. all agreed nothing can b done jst let her liver her life out, and the sad part is all the meds they keep uping , to me just feels like they do that so they wont have to deal with the patient, so my famil and i r working on finding out what the hell all this medicine is for. is very scary when you and 2 nurses can not get her awake to eat lunch. but i will hang in there and i say the same to u. just hang in there man, hugs always.

      Apr 25
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  • imcomingforyounow1

    keep yourself strong, and love her as much as you can.

    Apr 19
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  • England42

    i'm so very sorry.i know what your going through.my grandfather raised me and when he did'nt know who i was my heart broke a thousand times a day.if you ever need to talk i'm here.you are in my prayers.

    Apr 17
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    • BILLYMADISONJ

      Thank you dear........and sorry that you had to go through this with your grandfather.
      It is sooo difficult and heartbreaking.....I will remember you when I need to talk to somebody.

      Apr 17
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    • England42

      I THINK YOU have a wonderful heart and soul.the way you shared your heartache about your beautiful mother with all of us makes u the most awesome person i have ever met.i feel your love for your mom and it brings tears to my eyes.i love my mom the same.so just remember the only thing that matters in this life is who we carry in our heart.GOD BLESS.

      Apr 17
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    • BILLYMADISONJ

      OMG! thank you dear! I think you also have a wonderful heart and soul and I am very lucky to call you my friend sweetheart. God Bless you!!!!

      Apr 17
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  • Bellsandtrance

    I knew someone like that once. I am sorry it is very hard. I have no words of comfort.

    Apr 16
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    • BILLYMADISONJ

      those WERE words of comfort...........thank you

      Apr 16
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  • Babeondwy

    Oh Billy I am sorry to hear this. Sorry hugs to you Billy. You are still Amazing! smiling for you Billy keep your head up!

    Apr 15
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    • BILLYMADISONJ

      thank you soo much my wonderful friend

      Apr 15
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  • tziAnn88

    :(

    Apr 15
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