I'm head over heals in love with somebody. That sounds great, but it's not as simple as that. Both myself and the person I'm in love with have over the last 6 months gone through very difficult separations. Since then we have become best friends, not because of a common ground over our separations but because we get on so well together. I'm not ready for a relationship just yet and neither is she. Yet I'm so in love with her. She knows the way I feel because I told her two months ago. She didn't really give anything away in her response, but it was clear that she wasn't ready for a relationship. Since the day I told her my feelings we've only grown closer together. But I'm beating myself up because I can't get a measure on how she feels about me. I don't want to push the issue any further and risk driving her away but I feel the whole situation can't carry on the way it is. I just wish she'd say something, whether it be that nothing will ever happen or yes it will, but give it time. It's crazy, we tell each other things we'd never dare sharing with anyone else, yet we can't discuss the two of us. All our friends say we'd be so amazingly good together and they're wishing we would get together. A mutual friend of ours is convinced it'll happen, given time. That's great but not knowing what's going on in her head is making me ill. I've got to the point where I'm not functioning properly anymore. Please don't suggest trying to talk to her again because I'm really not convinced it would be a good idea. I've never been so confused in my life. Love shouldn't hurt like this.
tpol75 tpol75
41-45, M
Dec 8, 2014