Endlessly

I have been neglected, abused, and deserted for so long, by so many different people in my life, that it has become a defense mechanism for me to push others away before they can do it to me again.
I know many of my friends are frustrated with this tendency I have, but that's who I am, and if they can't accept it, we can part ways.
It's nothing I'm not used to.
SpiritOfTheRabbit SpiritOfTheRabbit
36-40, F
1 Response Jul 14, 2010

I don't really feel like I'm playing the victim. I don't expect pity or special treatment. I am the first to admit that I have several issues that I need to work through, and one of them happens to be my tendencies to isolate myself. I warn my friends that I am this way, so that they can keep their distance and not get too invested in a friendship with me.<br />
Thanks for the comment. :)