Oh I So Know I Do
Yesterday I sat in bed, which at the time was turned into a bed, ( I have a tiny studio apartment I am trying to safe space). I sat there feeling numb and alone really alone not just alone because I was, but because I feel like there a void in my life.
I sat there just wanting to die to not breathe not to continue to live anymore. Nothing happened yesterday it wasn't a bad day, or a long day I just did't want to be anymore.
I haven't felt this way in a while and I don't know what to do I don't really want to tell anyone in my life mainly cause I am fearful what they will think. I really don't want to end it all I just don't want to feel this way anymore its becoming a problem a big problem for me.