Oh I So Know I Do

Yesterday I sat in bed, which at the time was turned into a bed, ( I have a tiny studio apartment I am trying to safe space).  I sat there feeling numb and alone really alone not just alone because I was, but because I feel like there a void in my life.

I sat there just wanting to die to not breathe not to continue to live anymore. Nothing happened yesterday it wasn't a bad day, or a long day I just did't want to be anymore.

I haven't felt this way in a while and I don't know what to do I don't really want to tell anyone in my life mainly cause I am fearful what they will think. I really don't want to end it all I just don't want to feel this way anymore its becoming a problem a big problem for me.

Starbuck82 Starbuck82
31-35, F
1 Response Mar 9, 2010

Starbuck82 you need to reach out sometimes being alone is so hard. I know this feeling myself. You are young many years ahead of you. I am here if you need to vent. I maybe your landlord because I have tiny apartments that I rent mostly to college kids but a few to others. I lost the love of my life and feel alone a lot. But life isn't fair if you go alone. Anytime kid-o Just let me know