Silly Woman

Well at some point we must decide if this is going to be worth the investment of our time,,,can we be happy together with or without the drama,,,,I can't say I waisted my time,,,but there are moments I wish I had cut off the relationship sooner,,,for me I hold on to only the good memories of my old relationships,,,so I guess it wasn't such a waist,,,it just wasn't forever that's all...I just broke it off with my gf this past Friday cuz she just can't seem to fit me into her life,,,we only saw each other once or twice a month,,,all she wanted from me was someone to talk to on the phone,,,there was no passion or sex for that matter,,,she called me this morning and asked why I hadn't called her in last 3 days,,,like nothing was wrong,,,I told her I was moving on,,,that I needed more in a relationship,,,she says well we can still be friends can't we,,,I just chuckled like before...I don't intend on calling her ever again,,,but she just can't get it through her head it's over,,,,,oh well....

For one thing she doesn't like to to anything,,,she likes to stay home,,,,her only friends are her postal patrons on her mail route,,one of which she had an affair with 4 years ago,,,but she still claims that she doesn't like sex cuz she's depressed and going through menopause,,,,I understand that part,,but I still need to see my gf more than twice a month,,,I want to see her everyday,,,,not just talk on the phone,,,So I must move on,,,,I want to love and be loved,,,I miss kissing and holding hands,,,I miss sex,,,,there's so much more to life than just going to work and talking with my gf on the phone about todays events....

She canceled our plans to be with each other on Christmas Eve,,,this was the last straw for me,,,,I can't stand being alone especially on special days,,,,

I want a real woman with a sense of love and need in her heart,,,,I want to be wanted,,,I want to give love to someone that wants to be loved,,,,,