I need some friends on here to write to !!!!! I am sad and the truth is i am in a realationship with a man that is cheating on me !!! He thinks i am stupid if i ask him he tells me i am crazy i love him so much but also hate him to > He makes me feel so sad and hurt and i dont show my true feelings i cant sleep i spend most my nights awake next to him thinking tommorrow is going to be a better day and i will let him know how i feel !!! I am to ashamed to tell any1 my life i live around my family and friends is a lie !!!!! I pretend to be happy and i am not i am going on 48 now and i cant start over i have 15yrs with this man we are not married !!! I am so hurt and confusses i cant remember the last time that i smiled for real and diddnt fake happiness !! The pain my heart feels is so hurt and lying to myself and pretending to be happy hurts me more !!!!
I cry when i get the chance when i am alone i tell everybody it is pollen that makes my eyes swollen and red
I am not much on writting i am going in circles sry !!!!!!!!!!