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I Really Need a Friend

I Need A Friend

By: Mulhollandrive
Written on August 25th, 2012
I have bpd. I struggle just about everyday at this point. I feel empty and very alone. I am doing everything in my power to have a healthy life and be a good person, but at the end of the day I just want to curl up and die because my journey to be "happy" feels like a full-time job with no benefits. I can't see the light. I need simple things. I need geeky childish hobbies and people who I can trust.
By: Mulhollandrive
Age: 26-30 , Female
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  • Jimbob2488
    Jimbob2488

    I know the feeling. I'm 35. And separated from my wife of 12 years. Seems like every time I try to bring her closer I keep pushing her away. But now Im feeling better with myself. Just going to a coffee shop or going for a walk or bike ride anything. Just getting out is the most important thing you can do. And there are people who really care for you. Just don't use one friend too much. Use all your friends. But most of all be your own best friend.

    Aug 25, 2012
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    • Mulhollandrive
      Mulhollandrive

      Being your own best friend is the mission in a bpd's life because Its very hard to trust yourself. Today is going to be a challenging day for me. Today will be a test if I choose to let another's actions and neglect affect my moods. I am geared up for this challenge. Fingers crossed. Cognitive self talk and lots of distractions are on my today's list.

      Aug 25, 2012
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    • Jimbob2488
      Jimbob2488

      Good luck. I wish you all the best.

      Aug 25, 2012
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    • Mulhollandrive
      Mulhollandrive

      Thank yoy

      Aug 25, 2012
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