Why Does This Happen?

Why when he upsets me, does my body react like I have low blood sugar, and I become faint and weak, and shaky? I mean I actually feel ill, and have to grab hold of something because I feel so faint.
It seems that cortisol, the stress hormone, reduces insulin, which would result in high blood sugar, not low, so I don't understand this reaction.
Perhaps because it's gone on for more than 20-years, my body has now produced so much stress hormone it somehow affects my physiology like this. I don't know.
It's not just things he says and does not say, it's things like spending $50,000 from a joint savings account without telling me, and I find out after the fact.
It's little things like "please, I don't want anymore of that or I really don't want you to do this anymore," and he ignores me, and just keeps on doing something that affects me because he thinks he knows what's best for me. 
He decides how full I am or not, it does not matter that I don't want any more food on my plate, and repeatedly say I don't want any more. No, he decides if I've had enough. We don't actually eat together now for years, but this is just a small example of how it is and how it was with pretty much everything.
It matters not a whit want I want or need. It has never mattered.
I never used to become faint...just depressed...but for a few years now, I actually feel ill, and shake and feel like I'm going to pass out, then I need to sit or lie down for a bit.
Why is it affecting my body this way?
Carissimi Carissimi
56-60, F
1 Response Sep 9, 2012

Hopelessness can take a toll on your health and body, you deserve to be lifted up not pushed down.