Just Don't Know What To Do
So my life has been going through too many changes for me to even keep up with. I graduated college in May of 2010. At the time of my graduation, I had been dating my girlfriend for about 8 months. We decided to look for jobs in Philadelphia so we could be together. I spent all summer applying and applying. Finally, after I had given up, I get a call offering me a part time job. Before I could realize what was happening, I was moving into an apartment with 2 guys i've never met before and starting a job I had little experience in. I moved to a new city where I knew almost no one. My girlfriend got a job shortly after I did and found an apartment a half mile from mine. That's when the problems started. I didn't know anyone in Philly besides her. We began fighting all the time. We had two really big arguments and didn't talk for a few days. Then, just as we were patching things up and I was getting used to this new life, I got a full time job offer. I gladly accpeted the pay raise and benefits, but didn't realize the extra stress it would put on my life. Two weeks ago, I went to visit some of my old friends back at college. We went to a bar and I was talking to a girl a graduated with (now a grad student) when she jumped in and started kissing me. I had a few too many drinks in me and didn't know what to do. After a few seconds, I pushed her off and walked away. However, someone else I graduated with had already taken a picture of it and sent it to my girlfriend. So my girlfriend (who i've been with for over a year at this point) left me instantly after recieving the picture. Now I'm in this city where I don't know anyone. I'm completely stressed out over my job (I'm an elementary school teacher, first year is notoriously stressful) and I have no one to talk to or hang out with. I feel like I'm in desperate need of some friends, but I have no idea how to meet anyone or how I'd find the time to meet them even if I did know how. I just feel like I have no motivation to live my life. I feel like I'm just getting things done at my job, then coming home and laying in bed. I guess I feel like there is just absolutely no fun in my life. I don't really talk to anyone besides my students and my co-workers. But talks with my co-workers are rarely on any subject other than school. I don't know, I'm just not enjoying my life and I have no idea how to fix it.