I Want (need) A Hug!That's something I wish I could say.
Everyday I tell myself I'll do it but I don't. I'm not sure how to. Whenever the time comes I freeze.
I was never thought that you can just go up to someone and hug them, and no one in my family ever does that. So it's incredibly hard for me, so hard in fact that I actually come up with a plan!
"I'll wait when she (my mother) is right there and I'll tell her so and so and then ask for a hug." Even I know how ridiculous that is!
And even with a plan I never get there, I say all I want to say but I never actually ask for a hug or spontaneously hug someone.
I just wish I could be more affectionate, or that the people around me could be, as to make up for my limitation.
I think it's been over a year since I last hugged someone, and before that it had been 2 years. It's just sad.
I've been working on it, trying to be more spontaneous, figuring out what keeps me from trying so I can overcome it.... but it's not really working.