I Need Someone To Hold Me And Tell Me It Will All Be Okay.

 
I don't like to dwell in pessimism and always try to stay positive. But, when you have no safe place to fall, it's hard to keep going on day by day with a spring in your step and a smile on your face.

I miss being held, and caressed and being able to just lay in bed and cuddle, or giggle, to give of myself fully, surrendering completely to the one I love. I miss the intimacy of doing things with someone that enjoys my company, to do something as simple as watch a movie with someone, to share my innermost thoughts with that person I can call my own. Where is that special someone I can talk to, who loves to hear what I have to say, who wants to share his day, who is there to listen and who will help me figure things out? I want that so bad I can't even begin to describe how much. Everyone deserves someone like that.

I am locked up in a marriage, like a princess in a tower. I feel confined, I cannot breathe. The walls are high, I cannot escape.

I went back to school and lost my clients. I lost my source of income, my importance, my independence, my dignity. My youthful years are slipping away. I am still attractive, or so I am told, but I wonder if there is anyone out there who will love me the way I need to be loved. Is time running out? Is there no one there for me? For how much longer, can I continue to hope, when it's already so difficult to hang on? I need someone to hold me, to kiss me, to offer their shoulder so that I can rest from my weary thoughts, someone to stroke my hair and assure me, that it will all be okay.

 
imathinkin imathinkin
51-55, F
4 Responses Aug 3, 2010

We all need that confirmation on a very regular basis that we are indeed the one and it has to be both shown in action and in words. If you are not getting that your life is missing one of the greatest joys there is. Remember when...........

I agree. You can't ever lose hope. Btw...cat's are great. I'm sure you are pretty great too. :)

You are right, you deserve to love and be loved. We all do! There is always some one out there for us, but they show up at the right time, when you are ready, when she is ready ans, at the place. Be patient.

You are right, you deserve to love and be loved. We all do! There is always some one out there for us, but they show up at the right time, when you are ready, when she is ready ans, at the place. Be patient.