To Be Perfectly Honest...

I have a friends with benefits relationship going on, the first time ever. I don't like it, I'm good through the week but on the weekends it bothers me and that would be the sign I need to stop. I love being around him and spending time with him, but there is a ride range of feelings and emotions that are sounding there alerts WARNING. I could totally fall head over heals for him. He is so different from anyone I have ever met. Very laid back. It goes against all my morals doing what we have been doing. I have been studying to become a Christian. So, I don't know what will happen. I would like to go out to with him and take some pictures of us together and then back off. I want to remember him/us together. I don't know what will happen, but I need to have my heart and feelings guarded. I did tell myself as soon as I started envisioning a future together I would end it, but just feeling the way I feel I don't know. We shall see.