It Hurts More An More Each Day.

Its been a couple weeks since my best friend died.. It feels like it was just yesterday I was talking to her about her birthday and our party we were planning.. Today she would be 16. Its just all... So unreal.. Like this isn't happening. I haven't stopped crying. I can't sleep, I can't do anything. Her family is talking about how to celebrate her life and be glad shes in a better place.. How could they loose their baby girl and be okay? I'm not even her family but I can't even imagine being happy again. She was so much too me, She was my best friend.. Everything remeinds me of her. Nothing feels right, well things were never right with me. But she was the person I always wen't to.. She was only 15.. She just didn't deserve to die. Its just not fair, How could this happen to her? To her family? To me? Maybe I'm being selfish by only thinking of my self. About how much I miss her and How much I need her. I feel so alone...
SaraC09 SaraC09
13-15, F
4 Responses Sep 3, 2012

I lost my best friend 10 months ago in a car accident. It is so hard without her. I used to go to her for everything and now she's gone. One of the hardest things is when I replay in my mind when my dad told me. We were at church and he pulled me out of the service and drove me home. I was already in tears because I knew something had happened and I just could take it so I started crying in the car. And then we got home and I say down on the couch and he told me that someone died. And I let out a sob because It hurt to know that. And then he covered his face and started to cry and then he said her name. And I broke. I heard her name ringing in my ears "Meredith, Meredith, Meredith." And I screamed and I screamed and I screamed. And then at her funeral I say next to my brother (who had just broken up with her.) and in the middle of the service he let let out the most heart wrenching sob. And I almost lost it again. I don't know why I just wrote all that, but I did. I just want you to know that you're NOT alone.... I know EXACTLY what you're going through. I'm so, so sorry.

I know how you feel. It is horrible to loose a best friend. I lost mu best friend as well. It seems like a nightmare which i can't wake up from. Its a horrobl feeling some people don't know what it is like to loose a friend so they don't care till they actually go through what some people are or did go through stay strong if i could dp it sp could you.

Thats how I feel right now except my best friend didn't pass. We just have grown apart and decided not to b friends

Be strong!