Lost And Alone

I'm 21 years old and have been best friends with the same person for almost 9 years. We were more like sisters than friends- Growing up I had a lot of family problems. My mom and step dad constantly fought and he was abusive towards her. At age 15 I moved out of the house and constantly moved from home to home..looking for a safe place to be. Last year I moved in with my best friend and her family.. they helped me a lot with the things that I needed. In my whole life I had never been happier. That is until her dad began to touch me and ********** in my presence. For 3 months I kept it a secret.. afraid to loose the family I loved. I went through a period of denial- pretended like it never happened. About 3 weeks ago I had no choice but to tell my best friend what happened. She supported me, the first night, but after speaking to her mom and then her dad.. she's no longer around. She says she is unable to be around me- the pain is not worth it to her. :( Now I'm back again on my own.. lonely and depressed. I'm unable to keep my mind occupied and think about what happened all day long. I dream about it all night long once I'm finally able to fall asleep. I'm so lost. I'd do anything to go back in time.. I wouldn't have told her.
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1 Response Jan 21, 2013

You had to tell her....it was the right thing to do.....there is a problem and they are in denial of it......I'm sorry this caused you heartbreak...you didn't do anything wrong, I hope you know that.