I had the greatest friend i probably will ever have. She was my best friend for four years. We spent more time together then apart. She is the only person i could 100% myself around, i told her things i thought i would never tell anyone. Every phase i went through she was there going through it too. It was literally like i was hanging out with my second half, just another part of me.
I ruined our friendship with my lack of control. I drank too much, screwed up too many times, and made poor choices. She finally got sick of it. Tension grew between us. I dropped out of college and we barley ever talked.
A month past and i found out she told a very personal secret about me. I lost all trust in her, I lost respect, and i lost the friendship we created.
Every story, inside joke, and all the best memories involve her. Everything reminds me of her. its hard to go a day without laughing at a funny memory we had together, then feeling sad because i know there will never be any new ones.
I lost the one person who i could actually talk to, the person who knew me better than anyone else in this world. I miss her, and maybe always will have a piece of me that wishes she was still around.
Everything is different now, people change, and dont come back. We have to realize there is a reason people from our past are not in our future, and although that is hard, its necassary to grow as a person.