Lost My Second Half

I had the greatest friend i probably will ever have. She was my best friend for four years. We spent more time together then apart. She is the only person i could 100% myself around, i told her things i thought i would never tell anyone. Every phase i went through she was there going through it too. It was literally like i was hanging out with my second half, just another part of me.

I ruined our friendship with my lack of control. I drank too much, screwed up too many times, and made poor choices. She finally got sick of it. Tension grew between us. I dropped out of college and we barley ever talked.

A month past and i found out she told a very personal secret about me. I lost all trust in her, I lost respect, and i lost the friendship we created.

Every story, inside joke, and all the best memories involve her. Everything reminds me of her. its hard to go a day without laughing at a funny memory we had together, then feeling sad because i know there will never be any new ones.

I lost the one person who i could actually talk to, the person who knew me better than anyone else in this world. I miss her, and maybe always will have a piece of me that wishes she was still around.

Everything is different now, people change, and dont come back. We have to realize there is a reason people from our past are not in our future, and although that is  hard, its necassary to grow as a person.

muse151 muse151
18-21, F
1 Response Dec 1, 2009

TRY This???<br />
Remember to treat others the way you wish to be treated. <br />
Start practicing some real deep self-Love. ( From the inside out) <br />
You have the Breath of Life and Love inside you honor it. <br />
Remember to Love, Protect and Share it for yourself & others. <br />
Do the same for the Temple (your body) your Breath of Life & Love resides within. <br />
Once you accomplish this the universe will forgive your transgressions.<br />
Your life will take on better choices and outcomes.<br />
If Love does not reside in the self ..how can you expect others to Love you???<br />
Keep trying Your Creator has things in control more than you think. <br />
Much Love & HUGS, livingwell