Lost My Second Half

I had the greatest friend i probably will ever have. She was my best friend for four years. We spent more time together then apart. She is the only person i could 100% myself around, i told her things i thought i would never tell anyone. Every phase i went through she was there going through it too. It was literally like i was hanging out with my second half, just another part of me.

I ruined our friendship with my lack of control. I drank too much, screwed up too many times, and made poor choices. She finally got sick of it. Tension grew between us. I dropped out of college and we barley ever talked.

A month past and i found out she told a very personal secret about me. I lost all trust in her, I lost respect, and i lost the friendship we created.

Every story, inside joke, and all the best memories involve her. Everything reminds me of her. its hard to go a day without laughing at a funny memory we had together, then feeling sad because i know there will never be any new ones.

I lost the one person who i could actually talk to, the person who knew me better than anyone else in this world. I miss her, and maybe always will have a piece of me that wishes she was still around.

Everything is different now, people change, and dont come back. We have to realize there is a reason people from our past are not in our future, and although that is  hard, its necassary to grow as a person.

muse151 muse151 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 1, 2009

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TRY This???

Remember to treat others the way you wish to be treated.

Start practicing some real deep self-Love. ( From the inside out)

You have the Breath of Life and Love inside you honor it.

Remember to Love, Protect and Share it for yourself & others.

Do the same for the Temple (your body) your Breath of Life & Love resides within.

Once you accomplish this the universe will forgive your transgressions.

Your life will take on better choices and outcomes.

If Love does not reside in the self can you expect others to Love you???

Keep trying Your Creator has things in control more than you think.

Much Love & HUGS, livingwell