February 21st, 2009 @ 7:22pm Atlantic Time

  OK! You are all my witnesses. I will no longer cower in fear of what others think of me. I will be proud of who I am & what I have survived. I will no longer allow narrow minded idiots control over how I feel about myself. No longer will you belittle me, or be allowed to live in my mind with your negative thoughts & words. As of this moment in my life.... GET THE **** OUT OF MY HEAD!!!!!!

  I think I've let enough years go by of being damaged by other peoples careless & hurtful remarks. You don't like the way I look, then don't look. You don't like what I have to say, don't listen. This is me, like it or lump it!

   I think I've allowed my heart to be broken one too many times. I'll be 37 in 3 days, I think that's enough time for me not feeling worthy because some jackass thinks I'm too fat to matter. I ask you all in another story to not judge me by the scale, but I have realized that I'm doing that exact same thing. So, as of right now, IT IS GOING TO STOP!

   I'm going to start getting to know me. I'm going to try harder to give my opinions & damn the consequences. I am going to learn exactly who I am & maybe I'll find the kind of love I've been looking for..............Inside myself.

Thank you all for baring witness to the rebirth of ME. 

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6 Responses Feb 21, 2009

well said wyn. (((((((HUGS)))))))

Good for you!! I think you are taking the right step. It took me forever to believe and understand that it all begins with me. Kudos to you for taking the stand!

Hi Teri, I just got my card!! Good for you girl!! Stand strong, hold your chin up, and don't back down!!<br />
You'll feel so much better about yourself for having done so!! <br />
Happy Re-Birthday!! *blow out your candle*

I just got your card and came straight here. You are amazing!! Do NOT ever let anyone tell you otherwise. They ARE wrong. Happy Birthday and Happy Re-birthday.

hey this took guts to write this good for you now you have a goal to find out who you are and then go from there.!!!!

Teri - I am so glad to read that - and what is even better is that you are smart enough to not only write it down but ask to be accountable from friends! I will support and encourage you to the best of my ability. A man that judges you by the scale is a man not worthy to be in your life - PERIOD! The man I am in love with thinks and has always thought that I am sexy and beautiful and actually gets irritated with me when I say I am fat - "stop saying that about the woman I love!" That man is not the only one out there that feels that way - when someone takes the time to get to know you and see your heart - they are going to say WOW!<br />
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I read this and copied it - I don't know if it was on here or somewhere else but I think it is what I am going to say to my daughters when they get close to dating age:<br />
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"Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on him, who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat, or will stay awake just to watch you sleep... wait for the boy who kisses your forehead, who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats, who holds your hand in front of his friends, who thinks you're just as pretty without makeup on. One who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares and how lucky he is to have you.... The one who turns to his friends and says, that's her." I'll be thinking of you - and just because you have made this declaration - don't think you can't vent to us - your friends!