Growing Up

I recently turned twenty-one. Yet, I don't feel like that's my age. I oftentimes find myself seeing other people I grew up with as though they got older but I didn't. It's a surreal feeling.

I'm not sure what about me causes me to feel this way. I had a good childhood. My adolescence was rough and I experienced several painful losses, but even all of that experience hasn't caused me to feel like an adult--whatever that's supposed to feel like in the first place. No matter what I go through, at the end of the day, I still feel younger than I really am.

I've come to embrace this. I loved being a kid, and quite frankly I don't really like what some people have become now that they're older. They've changed, but not for the better. Though I still have the added baggage that comes with being an adult (responsibilities, experience, etc.), I feel like I've retained many childlike qualities that people often lose as they get older. Maybe that's a good thing.

SupertrampHero SupertrampHero
18-21, M
2 Responses May 4, 2008

This story touched me. At first I thought, well this person is scarred by their childhood losses and doesn't realize it - this makes them want to remain a child to experience what they failed to as a child... Michael Jackson syndrome...<br />
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But, as I read I realized you are happy.

ITS GOOD TO BE LIKE THAT BKS I ALSO ACT LIKE THAT , NOT BKS I LIKE TO BKS I'M SHORT AND MY AGE GROUP PEOPLE ARE TALL AND MATURED BT SOMETIMES I WANT TO BE AN ADULT.