I Used To Be So Mean And Hatef...

I used to be so mean and hateful towards my mom. I have alot of anger towards her, because of incidents that have happened in the past. I try to accept that no matter what happens, she will always be my mother, no matter the situation. I sometimes regret what I have said, but then again, I can't forget what she has done to me.
SnoBunny SnoBunny
18-21, F
3 Responses Jan 6, 2007

I can't quite wrap my head around the concept to be honest. Only son and the youngest at that. All of my sisters from my mother resent her to some extent, and I am basically in the grey area. No, I never fought back, and no I have not stopped talking. Yes, I have received many years of physical and emotional abuse. However, I am all she has left and I am way too nice of a guy. Your young, and liable to change. Try not to end up similar to any factor in my story.

I used to scream at my mom, call her terrible names.. we have even gotten into huge fights.... but I took out all of my anger on her because she was my safe zone... no matter what I said or did I knew she would still love me.

I feel the exact same about my relationship with my mom....some days I think I hate her (and that's why I acted the way I did to her) but realistically I know I love her. It's hard to put the past behind....it's something that takes constant work..I think.