I am regreting breaking up with my boyfriend
I broke up with my boyfriend two days ago. We were in a long distance relationship. I regret that I broke up with him. He lives in a different province so i did it over the phone. He was suppose to come visit me this Friday but I canceled his trip mostly because the relationship was getting intense - I have been hurt in past relationships so I became scared. The reason I gave him was that my instincts told me this wasn't going to work out for me but I am now questioning my decision. Right before breaking up, another ex showed up unexpectedly at my door. The previous ex had cheated on me so he triggered my fear of commitment.
I had left the long-distance ex several messages but he hasn't returned my phone calls. I've also e-mailed him twice as he may have deleted my messages before listening to them. I want him back as he is a good man. I kept some emotional distance in the relationship, always expecting that I would get hurt or that I would hurt him. I had informed him of my fears early in the relationship and he had been willing to work on this with me. I've been a mess these past couple of days.
I've asked for his forgiveness and to reconsider. I've let him know I've made mistakes in the relationship. My breaking up was impulsive. I want him back.