The Wrong Turn.

Ive always been into older boys. the boys in my year in secondary were imature and i couldent stand beinging around them i started talking to a boy called ethan he sounded nice at first until he started to become obsessed with me and controling. we started to argue soon the only convosation that was going beetween us was the arguing. our arguments were over pointless subjects and were always solved with a simple 'im so sorry babe,i love you'it made my heart melt and i could never hold a grudge on him. i met him and we would cuddle and kiss. he'd hold my hand and we would sit on a bench over the woods we called it our bench and when we missed eachother or got angry we would go there and think alone. we started to argue more and more and wouldent talk to each other for days even weeks sometimes and it crippled my heart. i loved him so much and i never wanted to loose him we had been talking for two years and never even got together even though we both felt the same. i started talking to another boy 'mark' in ethans year. i got with him and i slowly forgot about ethan. he got a girlfriend who was a year older then him and on numerous occasions he tried to talk to me and flirt,he told me he still loved me and that he missed me. i cried myself to sleep for weeks. i loved ethan so much but there was no chance that we could be together. he basically bullied me,hurt me when he grabbed my wrists in our arguments he controlled me,i lost friends,i lost my confidance,i lost everything. i split up with mark after 6 months of being together. he cheated on me many times and i gave him chances again and again. two weeks after our split he got with another girl. i was heartbroken. after that i fell out with my bestfriend and hanged around with my old freind brittany. brittany was a typical example of a girl who grew up with nothing and will end up with nothing. she dident care about anyone or anything. i had a figfht with a girl in my year and got put in icolation in school. my form tuter was ethans science teacher and his class was in the room numerous times when i was in icolation. he and his mates flocked round me and spoke to me. one sttod out though and payed more attention to me he had dark hair and dark eyes he wasnt a skinny boy,but neither fat and he was very tall,hes eyes sparked and had a cheeky grin. i started speaking to him in the classes and on facebook and on the phone he was perfect. i agreed to meet ghim one day to hang out and get to know eachother better. so one day i met him at a park and we walked along and bumped into some of his mates, we walked off and sat around a lake with two mates that we both shared. another boy came over with a ball so they all started playing football. i sat there and he asked me if i wanted to go somewere else, i said alright and we started to walk we ended up in a big green near some houses. we kissed and cuddled and one thing led to another. then he asked me 'can i put my penis inside you' i said no because i dident want to do anything i was still pretty young. he reasured me and i did'nt want to be embarresed so as a mug i fell for his trick and said yes. we made love for a hour and after he asked me out i said yeah and we both kissed and cuddled after. we both went back to our houses and returned to school the next day. later on that day i met him with a few mates and we sat and cuddled and kissed on a bench whilst they played football. i went to school the next day and i got loads of dirty looks,people wispering,laughing at me everytime they walked past. i walked outside with my mates and his name was shouted out by his mates at me. EVERYONE KNEW i felt humiliated i shouldent have done it. but it was too late this wasnt a nightmare. why? why me? i got pulled out by teachers and screamed at over it. my phone taken off me. and meetings my parents called in...

TO BE CONTINUED...
RhiXoxo RhiXoxo
13-15, F
Sep 25, 2012