I Was So Young.

I lost mine to a boy I was dating for three years.. on and off. He was my first for pretty much everything. I was 13, a lot of my people at my school were not virgins. so I didn't think it was that big of a deal. we were dating two years and then he started to come over like every day & each day seemed like we would go farther. and then one day he just decided it was going to happen. and I was in the situation, where I felt like I couldn't say no. I was a virgin; he wasn't. we stayed together for a year after that. and as soon as we broke up, he told everyone about our "sex life" I was so embarrassed. because I was the one who got labeled. still to this day, people think of me as a *****. because I have messed around with a few other guys; but people don't care to realize that I have changed. I am about to go into highschool, and i'm scared. I don't know.. I don't want to be known as a *****. It sucks; I haven't had sex in a long time. and I have been in a long healthy relationship, and still won't give my boyfriend sex. he is a senior, and i'm a freshman, which makes things 10 times worse, because people think since our age he is using me for sex. when really we haven't even had sex. I regret it so much, because to this day.. people would look at me so different.
emilyrussell1 emilyrussell1
13-15, F
1 Response Jul 9, 2012

he is an *** for spreading those things. people shouldn't judge. you lost to your boyfriend not to a one night stand. if you are not ready for intimacy dont do it. i think you are too young to be sexually active. just forget about people and ignore their comments. good luck!!!