I Was So Young.

I lost mine to a boy I was dating for three years.. on and off. He was my first for pretty much everything. I was 13, a lot of my people at my school were not virgins. so I didn't think it was that big of a deal. we were dating two years and then he started to come over like every day & each day seemed like we would go farther. and then one day he just decided it was going to happen. and I was in the situation, where I felt like I couldn't say no. I was a virgin; he wasn't. we stayed together for a year after that. and as soon as we broke up, he told everyone about our "sex life" I was so embarrassed. because I was the one who got labeled. still to this day, people think of me as a *****. because I have messed around with a few other guys; but people don't care to realize that I have changed. I am about to go into highschool, and i'm scared. I don't know.. I don't want to be known as a *****. It sucks; I haven't had sex in a long time. and I have been in a long healthy relationship, and still won't give my boyfriend sex. he is a senior, and i'm a freshman, which makes things 10 times worse, because people think since our age he is using me for sex. when really we haven't even had sex. I regret it so much, because to this day.. people would look at me so different.
emilyrussell1 emilyrussell1 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 9, 2012

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People who think like that about u do not deserve ur care or attention.... I do not know why to give urself this kind of life where u are regretting and punishing urself for what people think u are... or why u give ur time to think about the comments of all of these silly people....U urself have told there are lot of girls who are not virgin ... ARE THEY SO GUILTY AS YOU ARE? I dont think why are u? It is ok if u want to wait with this new boy but if u are doing it for urself and not because of the opinion of the rest.... People love to judge and if we allow them to affect us we are treating ourselves as bad as they do.... DO what is good because u know and think it is good... and do not do what is bad because u think that is bad.... DO things to be happy with urself and with the one who loves u always and when this do not affect u...if it does affect u avoid it and if u fall STAND UP and let it go! But do not allow ordinary people who do not have anything else to do than to judge and critize anybody else to say what u are and to stop u to feel good! U are so valuable even if they do not think so or want to deny it even when they know u are so valuable.... give urself the opportunity to be loved and to enjoy relation with the people who loves u as u are and that take the time to discover ur greatness ...everybody else is a fake who will not be besides u to help u up u when u fall so please do not pay them attention and leave them to continue loosing they time talking and talking...they will be caught when they themselves fall.... and u will be there happy and healthy to help them up if they want u to help them up!..... there is the life after adolescence where u will not be judge for being virgin or not... University is a new world were u will demostrate all what u ve got!...But while u get there build up ur future and determine to put ur own opinion first better than the opinion of the rest of all...

he is an *** for spreading those things. people shouldn't judge. you lost to your boyfriend not to a one night stand. if you are not ready for intimacy dont do it. i think you are too young to be sexually active. just forget about people and ignore their comments. good luck!!!