Horrible First Kiss

There was a huge graduation party (we had just finished 8th grade) at the local park and all of my friends were going. My bf (who I am still with) and I still hadn't kissed yet...even though we had been dating for 6 months. He likes to take things slow, obviously. We hadn't kissed during previous "moments" because we wanted to be alone. We decided to have our first kiss at the park on the trail. My two friends walked us over there, which made both of us very nervous. As if we were walking to our death. When we got to the trail my friends left us alone. We didn't walk along the trail at all. He just wanted to do it and get it over with by that time. He hugged me and I said "this doesn't feel right." He told me to just do it and get it over with. I kissed him really quickly and it was extremely awkward. We tried again and it was even more awkward. He then let go of me and walked back to the playground where all of our friends were. He wouldn't even walk with me and hold my hand like he usually does. He then proceeded not to talk to me for the next hour because he was so freaked out by the experience. Now I don't want to kiss him anymore even though he consistently asks me too. We've kissed about 4 or 5 more times but it wasn't all that great. One heck of a graduation party, I'll tell you that. My advice is don't pressure yourself into having your first kiss. You'll regret it. Wait until the perfect moment. Trust me...
girly7 girly7
22-25, F
Jul 12, 2010