Totally Shocked

I read some of the stories in this group and they are not that serious. Most of you here regret it because you were young or you lost your first kiss because of the bottle spinning. Mine is not. It was so terrible and awful. I was in the state of shock because it was my boss. He was old enough to be my father. He was a married who had an affair with a girl I fell for (I'm a bisexual---bi-curious??? I know I like girls, but not sure whether I like men)... What a complicated life it becomes. He called me to his room and started to hugged me. When he hugged me, I didn't mind because he always said he likes me like his own daughter and he always hugged me. However, on that day, he hugged me and kissed my forehead; then my lips. I was totally shocked. Fcuk!!! I lost my first kiss to this dirty old man who had an affair with the girl I fell for. I was scared that I didn't know what to do. I didn't know who to talk to about this sh*t. It was terrible.