Wish I Could Redo It

My first kiss was with my best friend in middle school, before class even started he pinned me against the lockers and told me he loved me since we were in fourth grade and pressed his lips on mine. I pushed him and said i hated him then told him never to come near me again. But i thats not how i felt.. i've had feeling for him for awhile but i just couldn't think of anything and had no clue what i should've said. We didn't talk the rest of the day, the next day was the same.. it never went back to us being friends.
I wish i did it a different way, told him i loved him to..