It Was Arwful

Your first time is suppose to be wonderful totally amazing earth moving and apparently something you will remember for the rest of your life well that's right i do remember it but i just wish i didn't . It was so bad i just cringe  thinking about it  I was 17 i had waited until i thought it felt right how wrong was i. i had been with this guy for nearly 8months he was 2 years older than me he totally instigated everything in our relationship and when i look back now he was a bastard but he was very good at getting me to do what he wanted and i had no idea what he was doing. He had come round to see me and after and bit of fooling around he started to really kiss me at that point i knew what he wanted and i really thought that its what i wanted and we had sex it was a total disaster  he practically laugh at me because  i had no idea what i was doing i he didn't understand that it hurt not long after he got what he wanted he went home  left me alone confused and unsure what had happened and after that night 2 days later i found out that he had been f**king  another girl behind my back and it was her he went to that night after me it made me feel so sick he ended it not long after about a week i felt such an idiot and felt so ashamed and dirty after that night it took me two years before i ever trusted anyone again the next time i had sex was with someone who loved me and it was his first time so he was really nervous but we were nervous together it was so much better that time so i just take that as my first time i want to forget the other one.
myangel1979 myangel1979
36-40, F
4 Responses Jul 3, 2007

That's so awful! What a jerk. I'm glad you found someone who treats you much better.

My first boyfriend was much the same way except at the end he just went to sleep and forgot I was there. I did not realize until later he had manipulated me and pulled the wool over my eyes because I was so inexperienced.

I SAY THE EXPERIENCE IS DIFFERENT FOR A MAN , THE EXPERIENCE IS GOOD AND BAD.THEGOOD IS YOU FINALLY HAD SEX , THE BAD IS LEARNING FOR YOURSELF<br />
THAT YOU REALLY DIDNT DO ANYTHING FOR THEM BUT FOR YOURSELF. BUT I DID LEARN SOMETHING THE BEST SEX IS WITH SOMEONE YOU CARE ABOUT DEEPLY.<br />
ADIOS, MYANGEL79<br />
MONTSHOW

Sorry he treated you so bad....I had a similar experience so kind of understand being young, naive, and used like that.....