I Knew You Were Trouble.

"No apologies, he'll never see you cry. Pretend he doesn't know that he's the reason why you're drowning." - I Knew You Were Trouble, Taylor Swift.

This has been said before, but my best friend is a guy. I've liked him since I was in 8th grade, but he never seemed like the guy that could seriously like me back (though he said he liked me, I didn't believe it).
We're opposites. He's the sex-addict, I'm the virgin. He'd have a different girl every couple of weeks - all really pretty. I'm basically a potato. Stuff like that.

So I was always worried that I'd just be another notch in his bedpost, of course. 
He's moved on, thank goodness. I'm moving on, since he's got a fiance and kids now. I don't want his girl to think I'm a threat in any way. (I'm not like that.)
But every once in a while, I'm reminded of what I've missed out on, all because I was worried. My world of what-ifs come crashing down on me, and suddenly I just hate him and myself for ever knowing eachother - because then I wouldn't be frozen in time like I am now.

He doesn't know a single bit of this. He doesn't know that I ever liked him back. He doesn't know that I ever even remotely considered him. He doesn't know he's the reason I'm drowning.

Judge if you must, but Taylor Swift is my girl when it comes to heartbreak.
borrowedsorrows borrowedsorrows
18-21, F
Jan 13, 2013