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The Girl In Need Of Love.

Okay I'm not desperate or something. But I usually feel lonely. And I feel that whoever used to be my friend, or something, or the guys who had proposed me earlier, but I rejected them, started having a different attitude towards me. I concentrate on studies and all, but we all always need a perfect life and we crave for more ways to make it perfect. Example-Me.
I just started writing such blogs thinking that I could actually write down my feelings here , just like Jenna Hamilton does in "Awkward" . I do really feel bad sometimes. When my friends are with their boyfriends holding hands or kissing, while I just stare at space.
I've had previous relationships too. But none of them worked out. Seems like all guys date girls for physical things. And I really don't like it physical. And I want space too. I know "space" sounds to overly dramatic, but we always need time of our own. Where our boyfriends aren't full time behind us or checking on us? It gets annoying then.
All my friends are fake too. I have to live with such people where I'm so lonely, and my soul is screaming for freedom or company.
Thanks for reading my blog too. This is the story of my life, complete lonliness and yeah.
ThatGirl290399 ThatGirl290399 16-17, F 34 Responses Nov 1, 2012

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i need of love huh.. well that make's two of us... the name is luvless and there is a reason for that. relationship's are complicated but i hate being alone so i will risk my affection's a time or two. i think we are all a little selfish but it is a necessary thing to be that way. where are not robot's therefore are need's will be different from one person to the next. being alone usually mean's you are living vicariously through other people. that's the way i feel about it. so here's this i may be a better friend than lover so if you ever wished to unload on anybody i'll be here. anyway here's where i am a little selfish. i'm gonna go look for my future misses ex.

And you know the world and the internet is full of perverts and fake people,so stay really careful and consider a person 10 times before trusting.Trust your instincts.
Just don't go for any guy saying "I have the same life. Looking for a girl who I can trust"
That's just **** you see. Trust your gut and stay really careful.
Good luck and you can always email me at if you need any help.

Well,actually,you are right about guys wanting only physical.
I am a guy myself but I am beyond physical.
So the point is, You need to find friends who are not into this.
You can always make random friends on the internet just like me.
Not that I don't have friends in the physical but we have a lot of problems with them.
You can join any online forum or a chat room and start making new friends.
In my case,I have a lot of good friends who I can trust now,just because of the internet.
Because internet doesn't have faces and other physical thing.
If you want to talk to me,you can meet me at
I have a lot of friends there who I talk with. You can join us if you wish.
And you need to make true friends,search for them.
There are a very few people who can be trusted and are really good friends.
Be that kind of a person and you will attract more.
Thanks for readin

P.S. this would really help you


--> "here" below label "unshackled"
--> "listen online" at the top
choose what year
choose which true story

Your young. get through school which is important. You'll find the right person one day.

It is too bad that you feel as you do. You say what you don't want, but what is it that you want? It seems as tho you are expecting a lot from people and sort of expecting them to read your mind, and that is not fair to them or to you. Each of us is a composite of both good and bad which is what makes us human. Perhaps you are expecting a little too much from people as well as from yourself. People are just people not much different from you. Try not to be so hard on them and on yourself. Life is short...we don't know how much time we have here...try to enjoy it will you still can......

I want you to know that you're not alone in how you feel. And reading this I can better understand an important someone in my life. And because you opened yourself up, maybe I can fix the lovie may have lost

I AM YOU right now-excluding the fact that i actually have neva gone out with any one, at least you have(lucky) and i am crushhhhhhhhhhing on this guy in my class.........

Loneliness is so incredibly hard, ive dealt with it and live with it every single day but continue to fight the hard fight! :)

it is the worst feeling...of missing someone......of missing the memories you have shared for feels like you are dieng every second....but still you are alive in this zombieland

Not every guy wants to own you there are thousands of guys who don't want to own you. Go find one don't miss out on the other things available in relationships. Jelous relationships never work

I am a man ready to comfort a woman and make her my partner. Just need to earn someone's trust though its difficult because I'm a terrible speaker. But my actions would speak louder than words. :)

Exact same position. Im the awkward girl in the corner. I stick to forums and online for companionship. since all my "friends" dont talk to me at all. Graduated highschool 2 years ago, and got even more lonely. sweetie, it will pass. People just do their own thing, you will find a friend, somthing to do. anything :}

I felt the same way... Until YouTube.

hy cutie pie...
you are very new in the game of bloody heart....
keep your aims highs you wil get your perfect match...might be waitng for you too eagerly..

do not feel low,,...lets just grow on the grounds of pains,,,,lets it be your nourishment tonic..
take care

i know how you feel. i didn't really have friends or anything until I got to college. just hang in there and if you can't have a good time, try spending quality time with a family member. you might be surprised about how much a brother, sister, cousin, or parent can relate to situations like that.

Don't worry about it; you are so young and have lots of time to find the right guy. Being alone might be a blessing in disguise; you don't know

I kno tht feeling ..


You are still young~
You should open your heart and learn how to accept others.
Some scums are always there, but not every time you meet.
I meet my husand on He is older 23 than me.
My parents and my friends, who initially found it difficult to accept my choice, now support me because I am doing what makes me happy.
Wish you have a sunny life~

I feel like you too.
I am a bit older and don't have any friends either . And that makes the situation worst: having No friends and no partner.

I feel the same about the space I need, I trust that space because it helps me to be patient and it let me concetrate on what is the kind of person I need.. also if waiting could be a sacrifice.

listen to the song wheels by foo fighters

listen to the song wheels by foo fighters

And your not the only one I feel the same way but I'm a different gender

For one how old are you and theres people that don't do that stuff like me

You are still very young. There will be plenty of time for relationships. I'd say wait until guys mature anyway. And that isnt til they are MUCH older, if at all. It is natural for you to envy those in relationships and wish you had someone there to hold your hand and say they "love you" too. But im telling you girl, it sucks waiting, but if you wait, the day will come when a guy is taken away by you and wants to give you the world and hold your hand. Im in a relationship now, and i hate it. i feel like im stuck. those girls you see, they will have broken hearts eventually. at your age, date to have fun and experience people. dont date to look for a life partner because id guess that 97% of the time, such young relationships dont work out. maybe 99%. Im sure you are beautiful in your own way, and one day, some guy will see that. Patience is a virtue. Take care.

Thankyouu. You are true in your words.

“A friend is one that knows you as you are, understands where you have been, accepts what you have become, and still, gently allows you to grow.” by William Shakespeare
but know a days many friends are not like that; one who accepts your growth is true friend and that friend could be your best partner in life
so its not your problem its problem of the one who sees you.
i hope you understand what does it mean.

Hang in there. It looks like you're already putting your thoughts into something positive - by writing them out on here. How honest and genuine they are, that's the best thing you can do for yourself. The best thing when it comes to finding a boyfriend, is developing good friendship first and then let things happen naturally. You seem mature and wise, so I'm sure you will know when you meet a guy who actually cares about you as a person, not just for what he can get from you. I wish you the best of luck and keep writing.

Thankyouuu! Your really true too.

Anytime! Stay positive.

I respect your feelings. I know it gets frustrating watching others enjoy, but I also agree that freedom and space is essential in a relation. Believe in yourself and believe in love. It will come to you, is all I can say!!! Communication is very important in a relationship too... The better you communicate your part in a relaton when you have one, you will feel that problems don't arise. I too dream of having a life to take care and pamper my partner, giving her surprises as well as space and freedom. So, I know you will get what you want too. Just try to take life as it comes to you. A step at a time. Stay happy and enjoy the small things in life....Take care

yeah!!! like you said ,e crave a lot in our life!!!!we are never satisfied!!!yu said yu do concentrate in studies and when it come up to things we see in our frinends walking i hand with their bfs...we want to feel it too!!like you said you had relationships earlier and due to different attitude,it din't turn out!!!yeah!!!this thing really pi** of our life though!!!well good luck friend!!

I don't think 'space' is overly dramatic; It's a necessity in life which revives our energy & refill our lives with loves that later on will be shared to those people we care about. I love having my constant personal time. Not that people always drains me but I just feel that it's a cycle of energy that transmits in this universe. I felt lonely thinking since I don't have a boyfriend and just like you I tend to just observe & stare at spaces when couple around me get mushy & sweet. I love reading books (fictions, leadership, spiritiual, & self help books) and I dream to have someone by myside along this journey. Recently a guy expressed his interests in me & I entertained him. But I immediately missed my usual life without romance. This guy keep on calling me & he is so persisitent he doesn't even have the sense of respecting someone's time. He knows that late night im already asleep but he has the guts to still call me & disrupt my sleep (I need the right amount of sleep because it makes me alert & productive the next day); good thing that I turn my mobile in silent before I go to sleep. It's just that his actions frustrates me. He doesn't care about anyone but his self. When we talk he keeps on talking non stop giving his life story drama and of course where he's the star. I really don't mind listening to friends (I told him we are just friends as we hardly know each other) but I sense that being with him is not healthy & will just misled me from fulfilling my life's agenda. You see im still in this chapter in my life where I still figuring out what profession to take, what post graduate to take & what my dream really is. I'm a school achiever just because my parents taught to be a good student. I got promoted because I value work & trust given to me by my employeer. I abide by the norms & living this way makes me at peace but still a huge part of me is missing when I see my friends fulfilling their dreams while I'm still in my exploration stage. People may think Im happy with what I have become. They encourage me to take law but I clearly feel that that is now my world. Being a Team Leader Researcher, I learned to take care of my members, mentor them & give some coaching. I read a variety of leadership bookd because I feel the need to grow so that I won't mislead anyone & that I can fulfill my duty. Somehow this gave me a sense of fulfulment. I know that challenges are always present' ive cried, smiled & laugh then another chapter arrives and here goes again that cycle. Still im grateful that ive changed into a better person & i know there are still room for improvements. during my 26 years of exixtence, Ive come to know God even more. After some hardships & during the happy times I see Him. My life was once chaotic then I learned that hard way. I got a close friend that commited suicide. I don't understand why he did that still after giving his promise not to do it again. I cried several times a day for a year and now I have my occasional anxiety attack. Still Im thankful. Looking back I see that gradually I got healed & is able to forgive. I now see the beauty of peace & harmony amdist life differences. I acknowledge individuality & at the same time respects my needs as well. Today i've come to realize what I want from a boyfried, a lover & a husband. I need him to be by lifetime partner living in faith & fidelity; someone who can guide me & help each other grow. Someone who can mentor me & someone who completes my individuality. Im better off alone rather than sticking to a person I dont love as a dictate of society. Isn't it grate to have someone sitting with you just listening to music in silence? We both need someone who gives & value spaces. Space is were we start to love ourselves and we cannot love without loving ourselves first, we can't give something we don't have. :) As I continue to pray & seek for guidance in my journey, I suggest that you may also find the serenity, clarity & joy of life being single or being with someone (synergize! ) :) God Bless You.

So true! I would also try to see things about life the way you do. Truly amazing.

i feel same... i feel a knot in my heart when i see girls and boys together hugging holding sharing kissing and having their time... but i cant seem to do that... yet i need that... its like i want that but then i dont want thaaat... also the man i love is..... dont know... after him i dont seem to like anyone enuf to do anything for anyone... ad i dont think its wise to ask for help when u cant really be there... so i am just hoping for god to send the one he intends for me... and for me to recognize appreciate and do the needful:) do guys have similar feelings... dont know...

I know exactly how u feel. All my 'friends' have girlfriends and I have been pushing them away for 2 years now n I really don't talk to anyone any more. Im liking for a girl that knows the same pain I know and if u ever wanna talk text me at (810)-893-1144. Thanx for sharing :,

Sometimes you just need to get comfortable being by yourself and on your own. Thats probably when you are most likely to meet someone who is right for you.