I Just Want To Be Loved

So I have been married for almost 7 years now, together 12 - my husband is constantly putting me down, he tells me I am weak if I cry, he tells me I am ugly, fat, unattractive, a bad mom, a bad wife, a bad daughter ect.. He tells me that no one likes me, my friends don't know me well enough or they would hate me too. He tells me that his family hates me, my family hates me. I was recently laid off from a job that I had for almost 11 years, and he says it is because they dont like me either. No matter what I do, its wrong or not enough. This weekend he yelled at me and fought with me for about 15 minutes because when he woke up at 1:30 in the afternoon, and came down stairs and said he wanted a coffee and bagel from dunking donuts, i did not get up right away and go and get it for him. I offered to make him something. I was up with the kids and we had already eaten breakfast and lunch and were watching a movie.He is always telling me that there is something wrong with me, and that I need medication and then he would be nicer to me once I "get help". I just don't know what to do anymore. He wont go for counseling until I get medication -I am not going to just medicate myself because he tells me to.
nylonelygirl nylonelygirl
31-35, F
Dec 3, 2012