Don't Know What To Do

I've been with this guy for about 4 years and I just don't know what to do anymore.
Besides the fact that he has cheated on me multiple times he also drinks too much and does drugs that i'm not okay with.
here's the problem. he only does these things when he drinks. when he's sober i love him. i love being around him, i love the fun we have together, i love everything.

As soon as he gets drunk, i just feel like ****. hes only cheated on me while he's drunk, only does drugs when he's drunk and treats me like ****. we've even gotten into some pretty viscous fights when he's been drinking.

i just don't know what to do anymore. He;s put me through so much **** that i don't really want to be with him anymore but i still love him? but i don't really know if i love him or if im just scared of being alone and hurt. im scared of what my life will be like without him. i just don't know

i just cry all the time when im alone and i have no one to talk too. All my friends and family just tell me to leave him but they don't understand. No one understands the way im feeling right now. I just need someone.
An Ep User An EP User
1 Response Jan 21, 2013

if he loved you he wouldn't be putting you in this situation