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My Very First Crush!

It was at the end of 2008. I went to a wedding with my parents. When we got out of the car, a guy almost bumped into us & asked my mom, "Aunt, do you remember me?"
I started noticing him. He seemed to be a bit older than I'm. He was wearing a black kurta, and glass. Glass! I looked into his eyes &  I knew who he was! His family and my family knew each other before I was even born, they were colleagues as well as friends. We spent our childhood in the same area. He was almost 4 years older than me. Though I never noticed him that much when I was a kid, but in one of our photo albums, I've seen his childhood picture, it was the same pair of eyes! I whispered to my mom's ears, "He is uncle X's youngest son!" Then my mom recognized him & they started to talk. My mom used to be very popular among the kids because she was very friendly with everyone. It turned out that apparently we're studying in the same University, and in the same department!
Mom asked him to take care of me as I'm like his little sister. He promised he'd help me in every possible ways with my studies.
After coming home, I don't know why but I kept thinking of him. He was attractive, witty and well-mannered. Mom told me that he was a very talented student back then.
Next day at my campus, I was waiting out of my class and thinking what if I see him now! And right after few minutes, I saw him passing by! I turned back immediately  because I didn't want to talk! I found myself blushing for no reason and it was quiet embarrassing for me because I never blushed like this before!  But it was already too late and he noticed me. He stepped forward and came to me. We had some study-related talk. He gave me his email ID and phone number so that I could ask him if I face any problem. Damn! He was so charming! Not only because of the looks, I liked his attitude and politeness.
That was it. I fell for him. I knew that it was nothing but an innocent infatuation. Night and day, I couldn't stop thinking of him. Why was I even trying to get him out of my mind? I added him on Facebook, only to discover that I'm getting addicted to seeing his profile every now and then. I felt disgusting. I tried to stop. After few months, when nothing was working, I was bound to delete him from my friends list. 
He was kind of weird. He always used to wear black clothes, everyday with a new hairstyle! Whenever I used to see him at campus, I turned back and rushed to some other corners. I was even scared to face him!
When he found out that I deleted him on Facebook, he sent me a message saying that it's okay because he was thinking of leaving Facebook anyway. I didn't know how to reply.
After one year, his graduation was complete. So, finally I felt a sense of relief thinking that I'd never have to see him again! Though his parents were family friends of us but due to living in different areas we didn't get to meet frequently.
But he never stopped appearing in my dreams anyway.

About a year later, on Valentine's day we had a small party in our campus. As I'm not a party animal, I was simply standing in my classroom and looking outside through the window. All the classes were cancelled. A group of single students were standing there too and watching others to have fun. We were the viewers! lol.. I was thinking what a waste of time it is!
So, I decided to go home and turned back. WTF! He was standing right behind me! I was so shocked I couldn't believe my eyes! I felt like he caught me red-handed because I always used to hide from him. Then we had a little talk for 1-2 minutes and then I left pretending that I was in a hurry. That was the last time I saw him.

It's been years I haven't met him. I don't know where he is now or what he is doing. But still sometimes, I see him in my dreams. I know I don't have that crush anymore but I sometimes keep thinking what if he knew about my feelings! 
LisbethTylerMorgan LisbethTylerMorgan 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 13, 2013

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