I Was So Shy!

My first kiss was with the first girl I had ever had a crush on. We had grown up at the same church together as little kids and even back then I remember knowing that I liked her. School separated us for quite a few years, but when we met back up in high school it was almost like magic. She was a year ahead of me, and had just gotten out of a relationship the previous summer (so it wasn't her first kiss). We began talking and hanging out, and the next thing I know I'm asking her to be my girlfriend and she said yes. I went to church with her the following Sunday night and we hung out alone after church in the parking lot. I really wanted to kiss her but I had absolutely no clue how to go about getting that close, or leaning in, much less the actual kiss. She knew me so well though, she could see I was struggling so she came over and hugged me and during the hug she whispered, "Do you want to kiss me?" I said yes, and she leaned in and stopped just shy of my lips so that I could be the one to kiss her. It felt amazing, and I'll never forget it. It was not quite the fireworks and explosions we come to expect from tv and movies growing up but it was more like this fire had been lit somewhere inside my heart and I knew that I loved her. I don't know what she felt, if she felt anything at all, and to be honest I do not want to know. I want to hold the hope that she felt the same way I did and not look back on it except as a happy memory. That relationship is over now, and I've had my fair share of other kisses, but I hope that one day, when I do find the one I'm meant to be with, that "first" kiss will be everything even a guy like me dreams of.
YoungandFree93 YoungandFree93
18-21, M
1 Response May 16, 2012

That sounds so pretty. She's a lucky girl if you loved her that much. I think your first kiss was probably about as perfect as they come. Everyone tells me that first kisses always stink. It doesn't sound like it was that way for you. That's really awesome and romantic.

Thanks. I just wish I hadn't have been so shy, and obvious about it too. Oh well, the past is the past.